9Friday, March 31, 2006

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9Wednesday, March 29, 2006

todae din do much bahx...reading ms lim had a meeting wid de st'john ppl...den after tt is 2 period mathz...did stuff at ava rm cuz ms wong going de sec1 camp...did mathz...tt's reminds mi i haven't copy qn fer de work...shit..
basically todae was funz...lotsa joke...n not much stress...cuz during dnt n mathz we din do muuch.so todae kinda stress free bahx...
but My Dear Syurkri fell sick n went home earlier...rest well dear..Not to mention he said bye to mi before he went home...Aawww so SweeT...

hmm...went home kinda late...cuz i was at study conner doin my dnt. see how hardworking i am..wakaka...anyways,todae was de end of TEmaN ANUGERAKU.damn it...
de stori was like farking sad seh,but nevertheless it ends off with a happi ending...Fauzie is cute...haha..i cried a bucket of tears watching it...i could sae this is de first time i cry wen watchin malay drama...wakaka...

i"m goin to de CONCERT!!!whOOOo
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9Monday, March 27, 2006

firstly, i would like to sae somting to some whinieeee ass out der.
i've read your blog.you are so whiney and never once you did anything
to make the situation better.why whine?
does it helps to make de situation better? i dun think so.
why sit/standing der whishing n whishing?
Hello!!!wake up this is real life,not some fairy tales !!
when the fairy or miricle bomb come down upon you to grant your wish!
if you want something, go fer it.do it with your heart n soul.when u finally get it
you will feel a great sense of satisfaction,because you know all that satisfaction come from your own hardwork.

Secondly, my dae in school.I finally had a sleep this morning.which was at 6am.Nonetheless.i'm thankful because finally i had A SLEEP since like i dunnoe when.Yesterdae,had a 3 hours of pure boring MALAY! Came to school had 1.5 hours of MALAY!After school had 1+ hours of MALAY AGAIN!!! I'm so getting bored of malay.Oh damn,why can't dey give maths, maths n more maths...Anyways, i did my speech presentation todae,was kinda ok i guess.Though i left out a few points due to some time constrain.

what i have done over the weekends:
- finish up dnt (ideation)
- maths homework
- memorise speech
- study fer physic test
- did more MATHS!
- DRAW!!!
- Malay tuition
- clear things out with my brother
- made a huge hole in my pocket!! :(
- went to grandma house to catchup
- went to de beach alone for peace
-not to forget,eat,shit,pee,talk,drink,walk,run n so n and on...
over all i had a ok weekend.
and a rough start for todae(27.3.06)

I GOT MONDAE BLUES!


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9Sunday, March 26, 2006

fridae,
my sis n cuz went to apm...dey sae it was great...my ticket was sold to 1 of my cuz as i have to attend my religious class...like fark,how dumb can i be?...fridae is my religious class n i still bought ticket to see the amp..i can't possible skip my religious class as i have not been attending it fer 3 consecutive weeks already..and if i were to skip that lesson my name will be cancled off..

after coming home from religious class,my brother
ask mi if i am goin to attend his ncc ceremony at the
indoor stadium the next dae.i said i'm not free...
den he said this to me"you,kakak n ayah all de same!
promise here promise der,but never once fufil ur promises.
isit that hard for u all to attend that ceremony?!
Mum told mi to respect u all but how am i to respect you
all when you guys make empty promises?!"

Than i recalled,that when he got that invitaion for de ceremony, i promised him that i'll be attending.But now i'm not free. Is not that i purposely indend to make empty promises.is i forgot.though i'm an egoistic person i went up to him n said i was sorry...its hard for mi cuz i have high ego...but i noe i was wrong so i apologise...

he jus keep quiet and sater at mi balnkly,den a while later he told mi to get out of de room so i jus did...went back to my room,recalling how isit to feel that someting u are proud of n want to showcase to ur family n none were free to witness it...it happened to mi...it suck big time i noe...and its amazing that deep down my brother's joyful charecter der is deep anger within...and so does my sis..i think i finally found somthing common among my siblings n i.. der is deep anger n hatrated deep within our joyful charater,n we put up a great show to hide all these anger..

saturddae,
wen to tuition.den went home staright intending to help my brother iron his uniform becuz i felt guity.and it suck being in guit.reach home onli to found out that he has went for his ceremony.when he came home i asked him if he wanted to go to my granmother house cuz every saturdae we gather der with all the other cuz.

he stood der n gave mi a blank face.
he treated mi n my sis coldy cuz of this ceremony.he broughtt a slice of pizza home and i din eat de whole dae, cuz my mum din cook a thing.he gave that pizza to my mum. i asked my mum if i could have some..den he shouted at mi"that's mum,empty promises people can't touch it!" so i put it down n went to my grandmother house to eat. The ceremony may be a big deal to him..but i din purposly make empty promises..tell mi who the hell want to be labled as empty pormises ppl.tell mi...no one...
i am sorry for not being able to attend to his ceremony...but i had a valid reason.

todae,
dragged him n my sis to a movie.we watch shaggy dog...the stori was rather lame...Anyways,my intention was to make up for the empty promises that i made wid my brother...i noe by doin this dun solve the problem...but it will certainly helps to make de matter better.Had a nice chat with my brother n sister.Went to eat at pizza Hut, causway. talk to my btother that i have no intention of making empty promises n certainly making him upset..i was shocked that he marked every date everyone in de family make empty promises to him,wat is it n how he felt.it was amazing to noe that der are so many anger n gruges in him fer a small kid..mayb, he being de youngest child find it hard to open up to me n my sister as me n my sis spent time alone together before he was born and we understand each other more. and by de time he was born n able to talk we are schooling n have no time to spent playing with him,that's why is he negleted...

this month has been a challenging month fer mi...and i think i grew slightly in de sense of maturity. As when my sis n i argue we use to throw 1 another things outside de window or ripped each other possesion now we talk things through n understand each other little more den we used to...its has been an eye opener for mi...hope this will strengthen my family bonds...
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9Thursday, March 23, 2006

These are the pictures i promise u all just now.


"the ice scream stick that zee yang pick out.hahah"


"syukri's ice cream stick...that syaza pick out 3x...grrr"


"i finally got syukrki's ice cream stick...after syaza had taken it out 3x"


"the kok n nipple family,adelin n austin produce mi..haha"


"Mine n Syukri's stick..."


"all the couples in our class"


"sakinAh N haSif!!phee weet..haha"


"kok n nipple family"


"the dearly couple,my "mom n dad""


"another set of couple list"


"we played ard with the sticks"


"the 2 couples in the center...adelin n austin n syukri n mi...haha...-.-lll lamez.."


"4e5 slckers in action"


"proudly presents,4e5 neards,qiong hui n syaza"


"qiong shake2 the cup till de ice cream stick becum ike tt...NICEEEE..."

this gonna b a series of stupid pictures...


"austin tryin act cute"


"austin act retard"


"happi austin"


"this is austin take mi 1..."PerverT!!!"


"exorsism of nadiah..haha"


"look at syukri..he sec 1...wat a NERD!!!"


"this is mi,take by wei jian.i look like a ghost"

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9Tuesday, March 21, 2006

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9Saturday, March 18, 2006

fun dae todae!

i got a nap...mind ya is a nap! y cuz i woke up almost every min...so i toook a short nap frm 10am to 10.10am.planned to go out wit syaza dey all todae...n sumting bad crop up to 1 of my fwenz family.so de rest went to visit...i intended to but i told myself if i could finish up all my holidae assigment n clean de hse b4 1.30 den i go(by den it was 12.15pm)...if not i jus slack at home.i din managed to finish al up b4 1.30 so i din went to visit...sori..

2pm i hang out wid my pals at de blocks den to lot1 den to gombak...hahaz...nothing to do...i meet my sis at 5pm cuz she wanted to eat pizza..so i decided to go home n take my uniform n return it n eat pizza at btp...den i called her to watch movie too wid mi...cuz we been wanting to watch tt stori...but den haven't got de tym,so now tt we are free todae...we made full use out of it...

went der,returned uniform n dine in der too..i belanje my sis up to $30.(i see a hole in my pocket,n it's certainly a big one) haha...dine in der tok shit...been long since i chatted wid her...everydae come home bathe n go in room...eat in de room...go out de room onli wen i want to watch stori...my life revolves around my room onli...den todae...she n me began to open up like we used to...so glad...den slacked awhile with poy,ein n merah.den went took de same bus wid ein to causeway while he went home...went der we catch dorm..it's SSUPERBBLY NICE!go watch it!even tt i have to belanje my sis...haha...den after tt we headed to lot 1 n slcak fer while...sat at de mac outside der n chat...had serious chat,catch up chat...its amazing tt i dunno so much abot her even tho we lived under de same roof...wen used to be as close as insepereteble twins...

den i bought new paper...den we read. den we ask each other to guess how is de upcoming death goin to be like...cuz first was de car den de flat.den i told her de taxi driver told de passenger to give blow job den he was smoking...den goin to end he threw de ciggrate out de window den jus nice kena de petrol der...den booMmm...it explode..haha...damn fun todae...

see,last time my world is my sister....


(she n me wen i was jus little.)


(even before sleep we insisted our parents to take our picture)


(de first bike she got,n she insisted on sharing it wid mi)


(this was wen he had a night family outing,n de
stain on my shrit was cuz of her...she tried feeding
mi but de food fell.How SwEet.. :)


(mi,trying to cheer up my sis after biting her fer no reason watso ever)

check tis out...exclusive on my blog..


(how cute n innocent i looked!haha)

Its 1.06am and yet i'm not asleep.why?Its becuz i couldn't sleep altho i'm tired.todae is not the first dae i have this problems..its been quite long already.If i sleep,i would wake up every minute n finnally got myself a "nice" headache.

i can't deny that nothing is bothering mi becuz der is,but i jus dunnoe wat.been doin well in hiding de emotions but how long must i hide?anyway i'm not only deceiving my fwenz n family members onli...I'm deceiving myself too. i noe,ppl sae dun bottled up...but tell mi what is der to sae out when u urslef dunnoe wad de problem...u jus noe der is/are.

i dun even noe if this problems that is haunting mi is even linked to my sleepless night.my dad told mi it isn't good fer my health to not have enuf sleep...but either way oso its won't do good fer mi...if i sleep i would have a nice headache...if not i jus feel sleepy...but couldnt't sleep n it affect my health...either way , it still affect my health..so wad's de big fuss..

it's not tt i dun do anything to stop or prevent this...i did...i tried to be happy..cuz by being happy i can laugh...n laughter is de bez medicine..but it just make mi more guilty...noeing tt i'm denying myself...it tottaly suxs to be in denial..realli...how many more laughter,sleepless night n guilt i have to endure before this end?or is this jus de begining?

ppl sae dey want their life to be like mine...but dey were tottaly wrong...my life jus sux...its tottaly not a dream life...sickness?problems whic i dunnoe of? it took 1 of my bez hoobies away.sleeping.i couldn't sleep cuz i will end up having headache.guilt, having to put up a show to perk ppl up n trying my bez to look at de other perspective..if mayb jus mayb life is nice...but till now i still have not found it...when will my life stop having suprises?wen.?..enuf.i dun wan anymore...realli...
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9Friday, March 17, 2006

I decided not to go for the leadership thing…that is why I am still here in front of the computer. I will only be going for tml and sundae.Anyways, if I go there, I won’t be in a mood to do the shits…Orgainse camp? And overseas trip?calling ppl here n der…so not my type…I rather come on de 2nd n 3rd dae when dey have got all de sponsors n shits…argh heck lahz…dunwan to care all this anymore le..

My result?sux big time…BIG TIME…!with jus my result I disappoint a lot of ppl ,including myself…and I’m total not proud of that…I guess, I have not been taking my studies seriously this term…but I will take my studies seriously next term…I wanna improve n bring pride to my family. For once at least…I’ve not been doing that of late.

I learn to begin with the end in mind ,and this is my end in mindà To be shedding tears of joy when I get my o level result… so having said that I must work fer it…in life nothing come free…so now wad I wan to concentrate on is my studies….after o level I wan to do wad shit I wanna do now I will do it..burning all my notes with my peeps…watch movie till we gt sick of it…ton till we got no where to ton…party till de night fall on mi…

Anyways, I tried to draw an illusion drawing. I dunnoe if its good enuf to call a drawing tho…wat more illusion. Here it is:


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9Wednesday, March 15, 2006

hmm...been lazy this daes...or shall i sae been busy this daez....i did2 topic of de maths tys le..hmph...can guage where i stand le...gonna do it again n again till i get it all perfect...did sum bits of revision on chem jus now too...did my dnt too..finish my maths,chem n eng hws.left my tuition malay hwkz n physic..tt gonna be done tml.den fo more maths...i jus love it...whoo...
anyways did some doodleling ytd while i realseased stress. ask sum of my fwenz...dey said its nice...sum even sae can make into class t-shirts.n some even told mi to draw fer dem...but i dunno if i have de talent to do it...

see this n tell mi if its nice.okie?thankz


Pic 1


pic2
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9Sunday, March 12, 2006

skool,fridae, had award presentation most of de time den had emergency exercise.
den my classmate fifi and i started to make stupid stuff up...like duh...wid mi sure make up stupid stuff...den we pair up de gerls in 4e5 wid de guys in 4e5.each gerl gt 2 guys.cuz guys is more den gerls..haha...1 permenant,1 scandal...

sakinah with hasif,sacndal cheng rui
syazana with fazil,scandal,yuri
ezan with irwan,scandal, jun hao
adeline with austin,scandal,syrkri sabar
mi with syukri syukor,scandal,cheng rui
qiong with, cho yiu,scandal azrun
haha still got alot ahz...
funni sia...
cuz we gerls make it up de guys dunnoe...den we come up to dem...dey blur...haha..funni...

i had DnT camp from fridae to Saturdae.Was kinda fun.Although during de camp we keep on facing our damn folio.
Fridae: reporting time was at 4pm.but i reach school at 3.05pm.why?cuz my dad was sending my bro to his ncc camp den on de way send mi oso.so i had to rush n pack my stuff n go out wid my dad,cuz my bro reporting time is 2.30pm.As a result, i forgot to bring my hp charger.called my mum to bring de hp charger down for mi.

4-6.30:do folio
6.30-7.30:dinner
7.30-10.30:folio
10.30-1am:free time
1am till morning: lights out

from 10.30 to 1am,walk around school,disturb thos ncc,npcc,sjab,taf ppl.cuz dey lights out alrd.
lay dwon at de street soccer court n cwath de stars...so nice...slack around with ncc ppl those hu haven't sleep.
den around 12.30,ordered macdonal.waited fer de rider at de gate.while waiting we talk with mdm hamidah,n dis sjab incharge hu is an ex-yusoffian,she ride bike...

her bike nice manz..haha...den finally food arrive, eat...den talk on fone...kena disturb by cher...thnkz hor mr lim.watch horror movie...
1am walk around:skool again...den went,dwn to canteen saw de ncc ppl ordered macdonal.den dey said its de same riders.den alot ppl keep on ordered macdonal...den keep on same rider...confirm de rider buey tahan...haahah...

de whole dae i purposely talk about syukri,sae i miss him cuz he at ncc...lahz all dis crap shit lahz...until all my fwen all buey tahan...n regreted tt dey paired mi up..haha...den sae X gay lahz all this shit...cuz first go with syukri,den go scandal wid fazil,den kartik...1 by 1 he take...den we sae hi to our "pair" he look at us like wad...den we start...toking shit lahz...den in de end din do dnt ...hahaz....den ms tah gt show us funni pics of syukri..haha...

he make ffunni faces..haha...
so overall is ok lahz de camp..thankz to all my fenz fer craping with mi...hhaha
oh yahz...sakinah i give u permision take hasif,u dun bully him hor...let him do all de house work...u give him hell i give u hell...haha...look how caring i am towards my cuz...muhahahahah...
oh yah...gt tids guy call alvin he ncc wan..he damn handsome...his face damn clean...Sakinah! he is MINE!!hahah...i can put syukri aside already...haha

here is some picz taken during de camp..


(we told syukri to shut up fer 5 min,so he giving hand signal all tt)


(his face buey tahan cuz we cat as if we dun understand wad he sae)


(looking at mi,telling mi to stop)


(i took him candid)


(syukri,cannot tahan le.mi n sakinah keep on bully him)


(trying his bez to get a msg across w/o talking)


(took him candid again)


(ezan n irwan,sweet loving couple.tt we paired up with)


(syazana with irwan,wen fazil nt ard...ish ...syaza)

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9Friday, March 10, 2006

hmph...PROBLEMZ AFTER PROBLEMS COME!DAMN IT MANZ!
I total hate,despise,detestscorn Problemz..

i noe some ppl reading this may sae to demself->huh?nadiah has/hav problemz?
cuz i don't show it.i just don't like to remine myself that i have problemz...u can sae it as i dun want to face de fact that i have problemz.this is de true mi. i hate problems n wenever i hav problems i jus hid it away to everyone...not to make dem worry but to not let it remind mi that i have problemz...tho this problemz dun jus fade after i ignore n told myslef nt to remember it,it just make mi feel better.

argh!heck lahz...i dun give a damn le...i'll jus act as if i'm stupid n i dunnoe tt i have problems .tht would make mi happier i guess..but i wolud be in denial..n it sux to b in denial...it happens to me before n it felt shitty...i dun wan tt feeling again...argh!wth.

living in dis world is so unfair.but i wouldn't blame it,cuz if this wold is fair...wats de use to b on dis world...is like,der is no problems,no fights,no crimes. We have everything in life...so wat is der to learn in life.so this world hav to be unfair.its good.cuz if we,ourself or other ppl hav problems, n mistake we can learn n amend it.for the better.

it's just good things dun come easy.so if u have a good happi wt ever u will repay it by having problems or watever after it...cuz realli der is nth t is free in life.dun wan to type abt it le lahz,,,bye
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9Saturday, March 04, 2006

hey peeps, this is a list of movie i want to catch.if u happens to wan to catch de same movies give me a beep ya...

-Rumor Has It(Romance/Drama)->Now Showing
-Wolf creek(Thriller/Horror)->Now Showing,Nc 16
-Nanny Mcphee(Family/Comedy/Fantasy)-> In cinemas 9th March
-Syriana(Drama/Thriller) Nc16
-Date Movie (Romance/comedy)-> In cinemas 9th March
-Yours,Mine & Ours (comedy) -> In cinemas 9th March

-Ms lim Bdae cake-


-fifi wid de cake-


-de cake-


-Ms lim cutting de cake-


-ezan,fifi n insyirah wid de pizza-


-Class pic 1-


-class pic 2- (syukri look funni in this pic..haha)


-dunnoe hu tek this(class pic 3)-


-ms lim candid-


-suprised n happy ms lim-


- pic wid my classmates-


-ppl i crap wid in class-


-ppl i crap wid + nani my bez fwen-


-dey syiok sendiri,play wid my cam while i'm out..heheh-


- tis is de series of pic tt dey took while i was out-


-My vice chairman+ my unloyal les partner..hahah-


- tis 1 i tek fer dem-


-ezan n fifi-


-my crappy fwwenz-

still got summore. i have yet to upload
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