9Tuesday, February 21, 2006
i Carry it in mY HeArT
i carry your heart with me
i carry it in my heart
i am never without it
anywhere i go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling
i fear no fate
for you are my fate, my sweet
i want no world
for beautiful you are my world, my true
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart
i carry it in my heart
Sundae:
woke up at 9am.had tuition at 9.30am.Couldn't concentrate well during de tuition cuz i woke up with a bad headache.even so i still continued on with the tuition.While the tuition is in process my tempreture rise up and down.Head spining like fark.cannot tek it mans.As soon as i finish with my tuition i went to find my bed to sleep. i bruised myself while i was lying on de bed cuz i was to dizzy n i'm seeing double..i felt cold all de way.i wore 2 jackets n a comfortor...but still i was freaking cold...my temp keep on running 40-42 degress celcius. my temp like singapre climate.den a few hours later,i began to hav sore throat,running nose n a freaking bad cough... i sleep earli tt nite eventho i slept alot tt morning.so i din managed to talk on de fone wid my peeps...Sori...
Mondae:
Wanted to go school cuz i had english common test.but my parent's felt my forehead n said it was freaking hot...den wen my mum wan to feed mi medicine,i open my mouth, my whole mouth bleed..not mouth lahz...its de gums.cuz its to hot...my mum told mi to wash up n she went to tek my tempreture.i was running at 41.3 degrees celcius temp.. de whole dae at home in bed sia...i tried walking...den i bumb on to de wall...wth...
todae:
went skool despite i was sick. reach skool in tym...dnt was so cold...i cannot tahan..like can die...den wore my jacket...still cold..ahz...headache...next time den update
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9Saturday, February 18, 2006
Todae woke up at 7.30am.went back to sleep n woke up at 8.30am.was late for my tuition.rush down den on de way receive msg frm syuk
Listen to Syuk's voice.
Den I luff…after finish tuition went to ut.met wid nani, den go off to mi nas n syuk fer breakfast…cuz nani is waiting fer mandy to head to michelle’s house.den went to my void deck cuz syuk n nas waiting der…den in de end breakfast at ut…kaoz…den hav to walk frm my house to ut back…thankz hor syuk n nas… den while walking wid syuk,bumped into mandy…den toktok den go off…den went to mac..eat”breakfast”
Den,de gave mi money n told mi to buy fer dem…
cuz I bdae gerl…nvm …den eat le…joke ard…den dey 2 die die oso wan sabo mi…ass manz…haha den a while later michelle,nani,mandy come..den we walk off together…den I went home…cuz dey go sumwhere…dun wan mi follow..nvm…reach hm,changed…den gt a call from my mum to meet her at wm…so went back to ut AGAIN n board de train to bb..haiz…den my mum bought mi a present..hehe…thankz…den after tt went to meet up wid nani n cck interchange..was late…hmm…took 190 to town…
walk ard at far east…den took pic…den 1 pic jie lun look funni den she ask mandy fer de cam n run away to delete it…den I chased after her…den we 2 like idiots running in far east…haha…den she delete it…den walk to herren…we touched each other butts…den smack,pinch…kaoz…damn funni…den we walk pass paragon den saw 1 pic funni…den I took de pic…will be up soon…
den after hereen we went to michelle house slack…on de way home I recod this video of mandy trying to demostarte mi a fish mouth..haha..
Look at Mandy~
Reach mich house we joke ard n watch Barbie rapunzelle..haha..16 yr old watching tis..nice show tho..haha…den after tt head home..den at home oso celebrate…wahx…damn packed manz todae…hehe
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9Friday, February 17, 2006
ytd,first period onli kena lecture le...haiz...cuz some of de student from my class who went fer flag dae din do it properly...den gt complaint from which ever organisation dey help. i dunnoe...
den de cher call us,whole class write letter to her...those wan de letter to be reply den state reply lor...hmm....den after recess those asked fer de letter to b replied was replied...hmm...i got mine too... de whole dae was ok...din sleep in class...but i was half awake...n dae dreaming(got lah cannot sae)...den last period was HEY,watch replacement...de stori funni...wan go n buy/rent de dvd manz...after tt went to coffee shop 2.30-3.30chem study grp...4.30-6+ was maths...den finally home... went home sleep...
todae,at ard 1.30am...i recieve a msg...hmm...was sad n confused...but managed to hid it todae...hmm...todae 1 whole dae din c manda...anywayz...mr koh alter my idea again...cuz he sae it was to "chim"...den hav to start frm de research again,den design brief,design consideration n finnally design specification...fark manz....super stress...hmm...finish skool earli....cabut n dun do course wrk...go home n nw here i am..blogging...ltr meeting my mum at wm at 5..wonder wad she up to...
now feeling kinda shitty...i have jus lost a fwen...whom i look up to,hu is my light,hu brighten up my dae.we are so alike.tt somtime i see *** as myself...now tt *** is not in my life anymore .i feel as if i lost myself...cuz realli we are so alike in many ways..haiz..tried to salvage this fwenship but i couldn't...feel so hopeless..(if u happen to read this,u noe hu u are.this is wad i'm feling...i dunnoe if u would still care...but anyways...haiz i dunnoe lahz)(for thos hu want to noe...sori can't tell)
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9Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Adidas jAckEt(pic Taken By mY siS)
Sori Sis u Can't Have iT ...haha
AdidaS jAcKet
Rose From My MicHellE...
Rose afteR i open de dunno wad tt called lahz..haha
THANK YOU HANNAH,NASRI N SYUKRI!
APRECIATE THE EFFORT THAT YOU ALL
HAVE PUT IN,DELIVERING N HUNTING
FER MY PREZZIE.AND SORRY TO MAKE
YOU GUYS WAIT CUZ I GOT MALAY TUITION...
hmm...todae did nothing special...i onli went to skool study n sleep...yikes..haha...i dunno if its mi or de skool...cuz its getting more borring each dae...anyway i can't drang so much now i have to do dnt..
->brainstorm ideas
->do further research
->design brief
->design consderation
->design specification
All this by this fridae.Shit manz.
i still need to concentrate on my other subjects.it seems that the dnt pupils are forgoing their studies to finish up dnt...argh...but i can't blame the teacher...cuz its de MOE hu bring foward the deadline..anyhow,i must persevere.a fwe more mths to go n i'll be free...
did well fer my mathz common test!yay!
after skool pei sharon n her clasmates to pirce ear...cuz she de onli gerl...after tt go home...rush hwkz...den try to memorise de farking peribahase...freaking hard...damnit..den kena scolded..alamakz..den wen tuition dunno hu arh go miss call mi so many times..haha...but anyways thankz...hehe...
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9Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Happy ValenTinE Dae to de couples oUt Der.
HapPy FwenshiP dae to de FwenzZ ouT Der.
Todae,din lEarn much In skool..BUt i PasS mY mAthZ coMmoN teSt..
Thankz to Ms Wong..whooo~(u're great teacher)
Anyways i had to Skip MAthS leSson..damN manz...
Y can't It be Ss or Dnt or wat Eva lesson...Of all mAths...
De oNli lessOn i'll Be Fully AwakE...
Anyways...todae onli had reading period,dnt,malay.
11.40 headed to hall...fer humilitation lesson..haha
but it was fun...hu cares anyways my skin are as thick
as de walls can be...
15 pairs participate in de FD challenge(friendship dae ).
1st 5 is eating dey draw lots n to bad my n nani's
name wasn't called...if not i get to eat free food..hahaz...
de pair hu won is tis couple...de gerl feed de guy...damn
sweet lahz de scenery...but we were like bunch of
lamp post getting in their sweet moments..
2nd round:is de act out session..again my n nani's
name wasn't called..den de pair hu won is shrifa n 1 sec 3 ger...
3rd round...de last wan...finally mine n nani's name
were called together wid fifi n iman,aisha n syaza n 2 sec 2 gerls...
we had to dance...okie tt we were told...but wad we wasn't told is
we will be blind folded..so we din won't but hu cres...we make
a fool of ourselves...n its okie...cuz we gt de gutts n de rest
dun...haha..anyways mdm raehana was nice...haha...
aft tt went to eat den went back to class fer ss common test...
test after test after test....nvm...i'll jus have to bare it a few more months...
n i can rot after tt...hehe...
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9Monday, February 13, 2006
todae i dunno wad happen to mi....but i sleep alot ...hahaz....yeah!
Malay 2 period cher nvr come ...-->Sleeping period!whooo~
Ss:cher telling stori,too nice until i doze off to lala land..haha...bad seh mi...
den kena cought,de cher call my name so many times den i din wake up
until adeline n austin tap mi den i woke up...(thanks hor...fer spoilinG my Sleep...)
anyways after tt was our break,i was bout to go dwn de stairs,wen de d.m
cought mi wid my un-tig uniform...shit manz...haha...den act remosful den
he let mi go!whooo~(ThAnkZ)
den after that min nani out of our minds went to join de fwenz
challenge tt was orgainsed by de prefectorial board...den guess
wad we need to do tml?
DANCE!!DANCE EH!( I DUN DANCE!I JUS DUN!BUT
NVM I'LL TREAT IS AS A DARE!I'LL DO IT MANZ...S
O WHAT IF ITS PAISEH,I'M JUS GONNA BARE IT FER
A FWE MORE MONTHS HAHAZ...BUT DUN WORRI,I'LL
HAVE A GOOD LUFF AFTER TT..)
den physic lesson oso sleep...hahaz...too nice to sleep..hehe...
after tt geo n eng..geo is ok but eng was borring till de last full stop manz...
Anyways went to watch movie after skool wid nani,sharon, kaming n rayyan.kaming came late cuz he had eng remedial...we watch i not stupid too...
At first after hearing de comment frm my fwenz tt de stori made alot ppl cry i dun beleive..but den it happen to mi...i was crying like fark eh...den make noise alot...can u imagine luffing n crying at de same time..cuz afert a sad part jack neo put in a funni part...so i was partialy cry in partialy luffing...
First part of de stori still can tahan...like u wan to cry but u jus held it back....den ard middle der wah realli sia...i buey tahan...i held back lehz...den realli ahz dis stupid tear drop was too heavy le...den it stream dwn my cheekz....den frm der lor...like water fall le...non-stop...tis is by far de nicest singapore flim i've watch manz..hehe...
okie need to study...tml common test ...all de bez u guys...
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9Friday, February 10, 2006
ookie...hmm continue lahz wad i did todae...hehe...todae din went religious class...hehe...ACTED SICK!HAHAH...anyways... my parents noe mi too well le...dey sae todae gt wad on tv?den i sae hehe pesta pesta pesta...den my parents sae okok..yay!
so i continued on slacking on my bed till 8.25pm...den i go out to watch pesta pesta pesta...was nice...veri funni...especially wen dey sae"calon-calon penyanyi over"-->
den i sae"ee hu wan him to sing my song,if want oso call fauzie or syed azmir ahz...hehe.. =xden i was like...wth yof all my name sia come out... den gt alot lahz veri funni part...i luff until my stomach wan to burst...haha...anywayz fer thos hu miss this i think dey will show de encore telecast again...but de date dunno yet...hehe...de encore ltr i tek video of tt khairil ahz...den i let u guys c..hehe...
todae,earli in de morning wake up n mock...hav to, o levels are nearing...oh Yahx,todae o level result is out...my cusin is taking his result todae.hmm...hopefully he'll pass...hmm...dun wan to give him pressure...he'll tell mi de result wen he's ready...
todae went skool in time...hehe..almost late..english lesson did news paper article dn i sleep...2 period of dnt oso sleep...but b4 tt gt did some research...den gt bored so i flip thru de skool photo gallery...hahaz...de teacher back den are so freaking nerd..hahaz...gt c some pic frm de skool old building too...den gt nani's pic too...hehe...after dnt mathz..yay!everytime come skool look foward fer tis lesson...tho it seems like onli me hu look forward to this lesson..hahaz..did loci w/s...den after tt 2 periods of damn boring chemistry..sleep sia mi...hehe...halfway tho...
den went home change went to meet up wid my other peeps n went to c bb match at clementi sport hall...hmm shawn's de skill gettin better...den slack2 den went back...cuz tired gt to conserve my energy fer my religious class ltr...okie gtg n sleep n rot myself to bed...argh todae gt pesta pesta pesta i can't watch...argh can't c cute fauzie,n charming syed azmir...fark manz...haha
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9Thursday, February 09, 2006
where should i begain...i see no point in blogging fer todae...but den i'm bored so i jus blog...
hmm...at around 11+pm tok on de fone wid my fwen..den ard1+am amanda join de convo den we 3 talk lor...tok n tok n tok1.30am like tt my another fwen come join in de convo...we like 4 idiots crapping earli in de morning...den nas put dwn first...den syuk...den finally mi n manda...den at ard 2 + am gt sec round...but den now its onli mi n syuk..we crap...till its 4 den he woke nas up...cuz he wanna mock fer his test tt is todae...den after tt countinued on talking to syuk till my mum woke up...den i faster put dwn de fone cuz i told her i'm gonna mock ltr tt nite...but i end up on de fone..haha..so put dwn le...mock n mock till 6.15am...
den i took a short nap n woke up at 6.30am...den wake up feel like fark...i dunnno jus all de happiness n fun i was having a few hours before jus fade into de mist...reached skool alot ppl ask mi why i was quiet i jus said i was sick..but actualli i dunno wats wrg wid mi..hmm...i tried to b happi wen lionel all tell hrony jokes...but wen i luff apart of mi deep dwn sae...dun lie to urself in de end wad u get is regret... den de whole dae i feel like shit cuz i'm used to being happi n crazy...i jus be hu i wanna be...but todae i couldn't..the feeling is like a childs wan to be happi so much(me) but couldn't because she scared she got punished(regret) by de mother. like realli...u will onli noe how i feel if u hav encouter tis before....as much as i want to break dwn...i still held back to de tears cuz i noe i have a huge ego n tt's y..and i wore spec todae cuz suddenli my eyes turn red n tears drp to my cheekz...so i used de spect de whole dae so wen dey ask y i simply sae my eyes pain cuz of de spec...but lucky no 1 saw mi..haiz...got short circuit ah iin mi i think..
group study was ok lahz...3.30sharp i go off...den it was raining...so i was feeling like fark too...so i decided to walk in de rain cuz usually wen i'm sad or hav problems by walking in de rain it make mi feel better..so i walk...drenched myself...was cold,i turned pale...cuz it was too freaking cold...reached home i took a long hot bath...but even after doin so i feel de same no less but more fucked...cuz noeing tt de things tt used to make mi feel better dun worked anymore...den i tried slping intending to wake up feel ok..but wen i wake up is still de same...i dunnoe wats bothering mi...i realli dun...i i noe i'll tell thos hu care fer mi...but de fact is even mi myself dunnoe...i hate this to the max...
after waking up frm my sleepi recieve tis msg frm1 idiot...he sms mi bleh kenal2(can gt to noe)
den i replied hu r u,where u gt my no.den he replied,i student from Tp i gt ur no frm some malay chat rooms.den i replied"den i sae to him...couldn't u b anymore realistic...i dun go malay chatroom,nither do i go eng chat rm..i onli use msn.."den he replied "realli"den i replied "sae sori i can't itro myself to u...cuz even without noeing u at de start alrd u are liying..and howould i noe de details u telll mi is true?anyway it wouldn't be sensible to hav my details on de net.usually dey dun give out hp no jus like tt..."den i sms summor sae "i would b a fool to let u noe mi"
those ppl hu have problems dun bottled up urself cuz if u do ,u will make those ppl hu care for u feel hurt n worried,n make those hu care for those hu hav cared for u worried n hurt to...so by bottleing up urself u are hurting lots of pppl...do u wan tt happening to ur loves ones..?n do u wan tt to happen to u .?certainly de answer is no...so pls dun bottled up n sae nvm i rather suffer alone...(esp nas ah!)
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9Wednesday, February 08, 2006
todae was kinda funn..i guess...i dunno..mayb cuz i'm mixed up now..ah well...skool was kinda fine...tho,wen i reached school my fwens said i wasn't myself.cuz i was quiet..i dunnoe...hu noes i'm turning to be quiet n more to myself n tend not to open up to others anymore..frankly, i dunnoe...i din realise tt i wasn't myself todae...but den if dey sae so...first period was ok lahz tho i guess ms lim was having a bad dae.cuz she had a black faced on all the dae..n kinda vent the anger on us.but then i learnt not to take it to heart n to my lungs instead.cuz i'll onli take my love onse to my heart...hmm...2period of mathz so fun...solve maths questions...de whole dae i ignore de idiot despo hu msg mi..den we had english...we haad to do tis contextual clues..its like literature..damn boring...almost doze off..
recess...nth much happen...went back to class had ss.ss was fun..kinda...we were in our groups..den mdm azizah was explaining to us something wen zee yang went to sat beside austin...den austin turn n kiss zee yang's face...den all of us started to burst into laughter..well ,den zee yang was defeniately abashed i should sae..he face was as red as an apple...den he had to go for our checked up..so we changed into our pe attire.den as usually the boys changed in the class..den dey shoo off austin away..hahaz..
wen for de check up kena stripped..den de nurse check backbone..went went back to de desk n de nurse ask stuff lahz...den de nurse s.t.m ...den ask mi if she check my backone already.den i answered yes...den she forgot de result den told mi stripped again..i guess de nurse horny...wan c mi stripped..haha...-.- waited for de whole class to finish n had a so called "kenduri".
went back had geography period but ms lim countinued on with de eng..was bored...i almost doze off went our skool had a power failure..den we couldn't use de visualizer.so ms lim decided to do geo instead.thanked god.den blah blah blah..and finally de period was over..
den it was chem! mr chow din came!yay!brought dwn maths file to study.went through abit..tought syaza mathz...den do chem w/s tt was given to us..den din finish but we hand in anyway..hahas..den went up to nani's class n tought her math.den she understood already..hope you remember it...den 2.30pm wen to my class back to take mathz common test.
after de common test went to alazhar wid zhang yan,weijian,sharon,nani n rayyan.had fun der.guess wad i drink? none other den "TEH TARIK WID LOTSA FOAM!".its has been a while since i last went der.finally.walk to shell de busstop der n sat at our usually place after wrk n wait fer de bus.went home...bathe n did a quick revision before my tutor came..den had tuition..
this week hav been mockking all dae long...after skool grp study after grp study tuition...after tuition house chores..kaoz...i'm not a robot leh...Anyways i waould like to comment something about the school,if any teacher happens to be here n dun like wid wad i have to sae den treat it as i din sae anything at all.Anywas Singapore is a fee country ,everyone has a right to state their stand.so this is mine:i noe why the school is starting de group study earli january,but u guys noe student have shrot period of attentiveness and as u noe yussoffian de energy is not tt good ...so if u start earli den dey will be less attentive ard the mid years tt's wen de prelim is ard the conner n deir energy level will be low by den.even if dey were to attend the grp study will dey be able to catch was is being tought...not all..n certaily most percentage of the yussoffian won't be...so i dun c de point.oh well mayb i do...but den der are pro n cons about it...n i think this isn't a good idea...cuz usually those topic at the back of de books once a those which are more important n carry more marks...ah well,this is jus my point of view.
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9Tuesday, February 07, 2006
wel,its been quite long since i last post.i realli dunnoe wad to blog about this few daes cuz its been jus pain mocking..i guess even de book are sick of my face..
anyways todae was pretty fucked up.reach school late due to de trafic jamed.realli it wasn't my fault.den kena stand infrot of de whole skool.tt was a piece of cake...been doing tt since sec 1 so i dun mind.but wad make mi piss of is tt de skool rule stated if 4 time late den we got to do detention.but i've been late for 3rd time onli.but this idiot go anyhow sae i go do detention.on top of tt i have to run 5 round like de rest.after de running i went to c him lahz...cuz it isn't fair.so he start show mi attitude...den i show mine lor...he sae i've been stroling iin skool n been coming skool jus on time.den i sae its better den nvr...den he sae 3 times late shows tt u dun wan go skool...den i sae 3 times late oso gt valid reason lor...its gd tt i come den dun come...den i told him aft skool i gt tuition make it other dae...den he simply sae dun go our tuition...den i sae i have to ah.den he sae i show no interest in study...den i sae hw u noe u can read mi mehz.dunno dun anyhow assume lahz..den i sae anyways its not fair fer u to make ur own rules n be bias towards mi.den he sae i dun care...den i sae den like tt i can jus simply ask fer petition to change our skool u to b tucked out because i dun care...den he sae if i show tt i'm remoseful den he may consider to give mi 1 more chance.den i sae why should i be remosful wen i'm not in de wrg...den he sart ask mi where i stay den i sae singapore lahz..den he sae where choa chukang or wad...den i sae ut lahz..u kpo y...den he sae ut near wad...den i sae de previous 2 times i late cuz i stay toa payoh mahz...den he sae y nvr tell earlier...den i sae y shold i ...its my personal life...den he sae okie since u are nt in de wrg i let u off...den i sae yahz wtever..
first period borring...den sec n third period was dnt..n tis irritating guy keep on msging mi...kaoz...i din reply oso he sms...irritating leh...he frm K.E.P macdonal,he's nani's pri skool fwen...kaoz...damn irritating lor...den ask mi out valentine...siao...i reject le still ask2...den jus nw ask mi out tml...he jus dun understand wad's de meaning of dun wan arhx...if he infrot of mi i'll make sure i knock his head wid chair so he lost his memory ...den everytime his msg come i'll jus delete it off even w/o reading...heck it manz...den after skool cabut study grp..go wm n pei sharon buy bag...den go home...cuz dey dun wan go alif...so go home lorz..slck ard bed...ltr goin to hav tuition n aft tt goin fer some course tt i paid for..hmm..
tml goin out to have amosfour+zhang yang+wei jain outing...but i not sure if it will b amos four cuz dunno manda free nt...latly she hadn't been wid us...its always mi,sharon n nani...but now since nani gt bf le...she not been with us so much like last time...for nani i understand her position...cuz now she has to pleased her bf n us...so its hard fer her..on top of tt she have to juggle her studies..hope tml outing will b fun...
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9Thursday, February 02, 2006
ytd:
in class was freaking horrible lahz...hate it to de core manz...it ike de first dae of de month but den it is so shitty...kaoz...i dun wish to sae much lahz..den aft school weijian treat 4e2...den actualli dun wan eat wan...den nani call mi eat...haiz...so eat abit lor...kaoz paiseh sia...den widya talk to mi...at good onli...don't think i don't noe wad she sae to anda abt mi lor...wan to sae behind my back oso sae de correct stuff lahz...dun jus anyhow shoot...like since when i sae she was/is a bitch?!i didn't okie...if she wan mi to sae tt she was/is a bitch i cn...but i dun call ppl bitch anyhow....anywayz i dun call my teacher bitch..so pls dun assume...read btw de letters n u noe wad u gt if u assume..
den go fer stdy grp finish d/s fast...den i went to sharon's grp n tok to her..aft tt...her dad send mi off at bb mrt der...thankz...den walking to my hse der den under de block i saw my ex...kaoz....de last person i wan to c is him...den frak lahz...den blahblahblah...dun wish to sae den i freaking piss...
den my 1 of my fwen can sense it eventho i tried to hide it...haiz...jus hard to keep things away frm him/her(dun wan u guys to noe de gender)...anywayz thankz lor..
todae:
woke up to go skool...was late...but den i still gt ready...by de tym i went out my hse it was 7+ to 8...den had some stuff wen at ut mrt der...den 8.30 i got home cuz cannot tahan...ppl hu are close to mi will noe...ppl hu r not close jus act as if u noe lahz...den reach home...do tuition hwkz...dnt,clean de house den slcak wid my fwenz(outside fwen hu hapens nt to go skool too)...denwatch dvd back to back...at tt 7.30 gt tuition...damn tired..hahaz..
anywayz tml won't becoming schol again...cuz gt to o c doc again...haiz...sick of doc manz...
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