9Thursday, January 19, 2006
jus finish blog hopping...welll i dunnoe if this is a good thing or wad...but i jus found out that my distance grandfather hu is my classmate's grandfather has passed away...i feel like a total fucker...cuz i as so called part of his family dunnoe abt this matter till todae...i noe that de grand father was sick before...but i din noe that he passed away...haiz...feel like a total ass man..mayb if i'm a outsider i'll understand ahz...haiz...reflect back i feel so bad cuz last year wen hari raye...my parents wanted to go visit his my cuz grandfther but i said i'm tired n der are some other time to visit dem...but we din managed to visit...cuz later on my parents got busy with their work n i got busy with working n hangging out wid my peeps...argh i was too selfish...i should gow up to b a fish monger manz...den nw he no longer here...haiz...feel so bad...anaywayz... i'll pray fer his safty n hope tat god forrgive wadever sins he has commited n lighten his "seksa kubur n akhirat".Amin.
okie after reading my dist cuz blog...i feel like fark...so i thing todae is not a happi dae even tho i had luff so much todae...jus cuz of 1 thing i feel total bad n feel i should not be proud of myself i jus feel like i am an ass hu is not supposed or be allowed even to leave on this wonderful earth...i should be far off dead manz...haix...anaywayz...i'm sick...haiz i think i go skool no sick...i go hm onli sick...mayb cuz i'm troubled at hm bahz...dunno lahz...anyway dun wih to tok abt it...n dun dare to ask anything abt wad i'm troubled in..haiz...feel so fucked up manz...okie lahz...dun realli hav de mood to blog alrd...
once again sori hasif...i din no ur grandfather passed away...till todae aft reading ur blog...so sori...jus pray fer his safty in de other world n hope his happi der ...he hav help my family so much i'm so thankful fer him...he is realli a great man...his sumone i realli look up to...eventho i dunnoe him tt well...frm his character i noe his a good man...
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