9Friday, January 20, 2006
todae did not atten skool again.i dunno if i shall put is as a good way or bad...i realli dunnoe...haix...todae feel so confused...hiax..
it all started at 6+ wen my mum woke mi up to go skool...i tld her i dun wish to attend skool den she sae ok...den i went out my other rm n tok my bag n went to my bedroom back...i took out a slip of paper out of my bag.its a referal letter frm de poly clinic for mi to c kkh...den i tot to myself should i go or should i not...den within sec i doze off to lala land...so i din keep de paper in my bag back...den at ard 8+ wen my mum wan to tek de dirty clothes out of my room to wash she saw de paper...she began to make alot of noise...she sae why all this important thing keep it away frm mi...why u wan find trouble ahz...den she nag n nag ahz...den i took my mp3 n on my computer...all i put loud 2 so i hear mixture of music instead of her nagging...den she at 9+ she finish washing,hanging n cleaning de house she woke mi up.she force mi to go to c de doc...i din want but she force mi...wid wad?not giving mi 2 mth pocket money...so i like fark lahz....den i go lor... reach der at ard 11+ to 12 i think...all de way i din tok to my mum...piss off sia...den reach de hospital..wait n wait n wait...den finally came my turn...den der is 2 doc in de rm...haiz...den ask2 qs all tt den check my body all tt den 1 of dem sae mayb dey need to ward mi...den i sae i dun wan...i hav to finish my dnt..i wan to b designer...den my mum argue wid mi in de doc rm u r not gonna b a designer...designer no future...den i sae my pro lahz i wan b wad...aft all i grow up to persue my dreamz nt urs...ever1 has a chance to live their lives to b hu dey wanna b...so why shld i listen to u.. anyway u urself dun like wen ur parents n siblings control u abt hu u wan to b right...so u noe de feelings so y are u perventing mi frm ersuing my dreamz?den she sae cuz i'm a sick child...den i sae so u r looking dwn on mi?!u think wad sick ppl can't persue their dreamz mehz...de mor u argue de mor i wan to b a designer.cuz i wan to prove u tt i'll do wadever it tekz to persue my dreamz...den aft we col dwn...de doc call mi go out de rm cuz dey wan to tok to my mum alone...den went out lorz...went out den aft awhile came in back den my mum face look sad...den went out de doc rm my mum told mi tt i hav to go for another major operation..haiz....den i was like wen?den she sae sum time dis yr...
den i distance myself away frm my mum...den i start to think to myself...alot lahz i think abt..until my heard like wan to burst...haiz...den i sae to myself wad wg wid god manz...why every yr i gt major exam sure gt major prob on tt yr...
p4 -streamin :i vomit blood,went in n out of hospital wasted abt 5 mth of skool but i made it to em2
p6-psle:gt accident miss 3 mth of skool,went tru n fro to de police station to ans qs all tt,write tetimonal all tt..
Sec4-olevel:nw wan go fer another major opt.i dunnoe hw long will i miss skool...now onli i miss alot of lesson.den almost every 2 wk gt need go c doc...den de doc in charge of mi dun wrk on sat n sun...den everytime hav to ponteng skool to c de doc...1 dae nvr cum skool miss alot lesson le...wad mor every 2 wk...haiz...i dunno lahz...so freaking sterss up...
lucky slack ard wid nas,syuk,ein n hanna...den gt dun think abt it abit...but i still think...den i din tok much oso but i gt luff at de joke dey make lorx...wen dey saw mi wid de head scarf on...dey jus couldn't believe their eyes n tot dey were dreaming...esp hanna nas n ein reaction hahaz...funni de...but tt still dun stp mi frm thinking ant de opt...infact i'm still lthinking nw...dunno lahz..haiz...:(
go fer major opt can't go fer major exam.tis will lead to no poly n retek o's den bad image like tt to de repot bk ltr...haiz
go fer major exam can't go fer major opt this will lead to may gt brighter future but i dunno if i can make it tt long to persue my dreamz..
haiya think too much ahz...but i realli can''t stp thinking de...
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