hate me? then PISS OFF.

the art of loosing isn't hard to master;
So many things filled with the intent,
to be lost that their lost is no disaster.

Loose something eveyday.Accept the fluster
of lost door keys,the hour badly spent.
The art of loosing isn't hard to master.

i lost two cities,two rivers,a continent
i miss them but it wasn't a disaster
even loosing you,a joking voice
A gesture i love.i shan't have lie
it's evident
the art of loosing isn't hard to master
though it may look like a disaster.

i stumbled across this poem,
while i was flipping through a literature book.
And i decided to share it with u guys..hope u'll like it..
It's meaning are deep..Try to read between the lines if u dun
understand..:)

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let mi recall wat hav i been up to latey...fer this chinese new year holidaes..let mi see ahz...hmmm...

saturdae:
i woke up at ard 11am...cuz i gt tuition...den de tuition teacher got something on so she has to come a little late..so she reach my house at 2pm.start de tuition till abt 6pm...den straight after i finish my tuition i went to change...cuz my uncles is waiting for me under by blk le...so rush dwn...we goin to malaysia to eat SEAFOOD!!:)) 11 people came...we drive tru de tuas...is nt jamed at all...it was a smoth journey to malaysia...GOOD!!*smile*

reach malaysia,went to REMAJA seafood der eat..we ordered all de seafod in de menu.2 serving each.we ate n ate n ate...den while i we was eating de news on de big tv cought our eyes...der is a gerl 15 years old,been raped jus behind de Remaja Seafood Restaurant...de dae before we came..pityful sia...she was rapped and then killed...koaz...de people in de world ard become insane manz...after eating i told my uncle to drop mi off at my grandmother house ...slack der....tok kok...den at 11 den go home...went home...watch tv den i went online...

Sundae:
woke at 10am...den as i heard my mum called mi to clean de house i went back to sleep...haha...den slp... woke up at 10.45am...den i packed my bag n bathe...den off we went to meet my other ralitive at my cuz house's at bukit batok...sumwhere near sharon's house.my family was de last to arrive...den we took my cuz ,den off we went to ecp...reach der it was damn packed...we managed to gt a place directly infront of de toilet..cuz our family is big...den de place not enuf...den its packed n too cramped,we feel as if we dun hav any privicy...so we decided to jus pitch a tent first ...while all de uncle n my dad went to find a better place ..after much searching,dey finally found a much better place...den we are having...its about 1oo m away from de first plcae...so we bagan to move our stuff all...as soon as dey laid de mat n pitch de tent..i took my pillow n went in de tent n lay down n laze ard...cuz outside is freaking hot...its as if we are standing right infront of de burning sun...den laze ard,sms,hear music,disturb my cuz alrd...den i got bored so i went to slp...i sleep from 1.30 to 5+...aft tt woke up eat..went to de toilet..freaking disgusted man...i dunnoe how de hell dey use de toilet...till der is shit on de wall...as soon as i saw tt,i jus step out of de toilet n went baack to my campsite...call my dad to drive mi to mac...den bought some food der n use de toilet..whooo~clean toilet...den went back to de camp site n took a walk wid 1 of my cuz...den gt bbq...den slcak...play sand..swing on de hmmock...den finnally i went to bathe...hehe..den aft tt went for a walk by de beach wid my cuz ...we talked as we enjoy de breeze passing tru us...its been long since we had a serious talk...den we walk up to de jeti...to c ppl fishing...de ppl der pro mans...den sit n tok wid my cuz at de jeti...at de jeti was nice...becuz we were like sumwhere in de sea le...den de sound of de waves just synchronize well with de sound of de breeze...den out of no where we crave fer durian...den we walk back to de campsite n told my dad n my uncle to buy durian...den dey went to geylang n bought de durians...dey bought till 200 bucks manz...den we ate n ate n ate...den tok kok den went to sleep...

Mondae:
woke up at 7..suprisingly..haha..no lah...is becuz de ppl beside our campsite is strumming de guitar like no body business...so i woke up lor...manage to catch de beautiful sunrise...i think my cuz gt took photos of it...nice manz...den went to brush my teeth n have a long walk to 7-11 which is at de other end...den bought some stuff...n went back...den we use tis private place de toilet...actualli its a mini-golf for kids(indoor)but den we dun care we jus go in der just to use de clean toilet...den we saw a cake n muffin...so nice...so we bought it after we use de toilet...nice manz...haha...den went back to de campsite,swing on de hmmock,den slp...hehe...wad a pig..haha...den lunch den i ate...ate le...went back to slp..about an hour later we my dad woke mi up...cuz wan to unpitch de tent...den we go home...finally manz...reach home took a nice long bathe...n went to slp...nw den wake up to blog...hehe

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todae woke up 5.55...to clean my rm..cuz i won't be at home durring de cyn...den clean n clean n clean...i forgot tt i hav to wake up call syuk de...den i call lor...den i think he bathe liao le...earli in de morning so chripy alrd le...den 6.40 like tt wake up call nas...gave him 3 miss calls den he finally pick up...even so he was late fer class ..cuz he went back to slp..

by tt tym i was in skool le...tot of running but i was still sick...so i decided nt to...den meet sharon she ask mi to help her buy red bull...cuz she wan to get top 10...so bought for her.den went school together...

reach skool le,assemble...den went to sit infront cuz i nt runing...den kena help out de chers wid distributing de drinkz..de macdonals gave us fee orenge juices.den dey oso lend us their cooler,so we can cool de drinks der n dispense it to cup n give to de students..
den i sat der did de dispensing...den de water kena mi all tt...den by de tym finish all ahz...my skirt smell oranges sia...den mi n jie lun went to wash our skirts n bagz....cuz kena de orange juice...

den we were told to assemble back to class..den we were given ORANGES!!haha..den ms lim dunno go where den her lao gong help her distribute to our class...den i go disturb sae,cher ur lao po bz make herself pretty to make u happi ahz?den he jus smile n sae dun think too far ahz nadiah...den i sae i nvr think far onli short...abt 5 cm onli...den he buey tahan...ahaha..

denaft tt we r realesed...den went to study conner n wait fer Sharon!!:)den kena chase out...den go lor...den sit t de go outside der wait for christine...den saw gou hou,korkor,a tis shuai ge...kaoz nani gt his pic...but den he look freaking handsome reali life...koaz...so shuai...hahaz...den lawrence becum mor cute sia....hey lawrence if u happen to read tis ahz...spike up ur hair...it will make u look more cuter n handsome...cuz it will show ur face features....hahaz...
den wait fer nani n sharon to tek pic wid christine...den went to meet lun n michelle at bb mrt der...den off to mic house to change...den change le go bugis...

reach der ate at bk...actualli wan to eat long john SILVER...but den full...so we went bk which is 2 shops beside it..den saw iman..den eat le...went ot bugis street...kaoz damn pack lor...lyk at geylang wen nearing hari raye...kaoz...summor i was having fever n flu...denmy eveys keep on watery..den i feel like faiting...cuz my body itself is alrd hot...den together wid de crowd n atmosphere n de smokes...kaoz.den aft 1 hour + i surrender...den nani oso ...cu her legz hurt liao...den we sum sort pang seh michelle n jie lun...sori hor guyz...mayb wen i'm not sick...we can go der again...n shop till we drop...okiez?

den went back wid nani...we were like kiasu idiots...rushing fer seats...cuz it feels as if our waist is jus goin to fall apart if we dun seat soon...hahaz...den went in de mrt we din gt de seat...argh...den a stop later...jus nice pl alight...den i went to seat n safe 1seat fer nani...den another stop later gt tis indian guy came in n stod right in front of us...den as i was talking to nani...i think it was kinda serious topic ahz...den suddenli saw this guy scratching hi KOK lehz...!koaz inont of us...whle we were talking about some serios topic...den wen i saw i jus burst into lufter...cannot tahan lor...kkk..den jus after tt he st beside mi...kaoz i buey tahan lorz...den i shift my ass nearer to nani...den he open his leg so big...den i sa de shap of de kok...kaoz his kok damn big lehz...sai lahz...cannot stand sia...den mi n nani were goin to take a pic...den we stretch de cam out mahz...den he buey paiseh shift nearer to us so can gt in...den i saw onli i luff...den i think he noe lorz...den he shit aside back...hahaz...den all de way luff sia...

dewn went home slack ard..de bed...den 7.15 den ot ready to go RELIGIOUS CLASS...den de class start 7.30 n end at 9.30...i came at8.30...den at 9 den de class come back cuz 8.300-9 dey are praying...den can sae i onli come to class fer 30 min onli..hahaz...den while de break...dis gurl came up to i sae 2 guys in de religious calss like mi n happen 2 of de guyz are bez fwenz...den tis gurl fwen dun like mi...cuz de guy tt she like like mi..den i was like...wt eva lahz...can b bother...den she ask mi wad is de first thing i look for in a guy as in appearence...den i sae nose muz be sharp..hahaz...den she sae finnally she found someone hu look fer a guy wid sharp nose...cuz all de while she tot she was de onli 1 wired...look if de guy noes is sharp anot..haha...den got chat2...den ok lor..den i think her fwenz piss wid her cuz she tok to mi...n summor i'm de gerl tt de guy tt she like,like...a wad is so irritating is i dunno which is de guy...argh!!!anywayz...i dun go fer malayz,esp mat...i can close 1 eye a guy is malay n nt mat...but if a guy is both malay n mat...can forget abt it lah,,,ahahah
k lahz...buaiz..

*oh Nani,send mi de crazy pic we(mi,sharon n u) took n de 1 wid michellen lun...okiez"

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todae din went skool again...kaoz...woke up at 9.50am...took a long bath,den went to mac to eat HOTCAKES!!whoo~hahaz..den after that went to de mrt to go kkh.den go der tek blood test kaoz alot sia dey tek...feel so weak after tt..poke mi 3x sia...den poke le go move2 de needle in my veins..kaoz pain sia...nb..den took 3x cuz de nurse sae i nvr eat..de veins too small dunno wad shit...den veri hard to tek out de amt of blood dey wan...ass sia...freaking pain...

den after taking blood,went to wait fer my turn to c de doc...wain n wait n wait...till finally my turn...came to de rm...i forgot to put silent,den nas msg..ken gt de"ade msg untuk kau syg...."fark den i was lying on de bed,cuz dey were checking on mi...den my phone was in de bag...kaoz damn paiseh lor...but funnir oso de...cuz tt poin of time de doc call mi to inhale n hold...den in hale le...hear de phone den i jus burst to luffter den de doc freaking shock sia de face...hahaaha...aft tt de doc sae u go tek luch or wadever fist cuz dey waiting fer de blood test result...den aft de bloood test cum den dey will call mi in to c wad to to lor...if i shld b warded or not...

den after all de wait again...went in de doc rm n wait fer their decision lor...dey sae no nid ward but dey wan to do a scope or sumting on mi...to check summor...knn..cannot 1 dae check all ahz...mus abit2...think i veri free isit..nb...i hav lots of work to catch up in skool lehz...nevertheless my rest n my slacking..wadever it is i dun wish to prolong this any longer...i jus wan to gt this done and over with asap...cuz i needa concentrate my studies..

been sick lately,more often den i do last yr...last yr out of 1 yr i onli nvr come 4 daes of skool...but now 1 month alrd i 3 daes nvr come skool...ass manz...de doc sae my immune system is low n hav low platelets..shit manz...

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hey,sorry.. i din update lately...anayways now i'm here..okiez...saturdae went to tp open house i fell in love wid the school after seeing the design n fashion shows put up by the students.dey jus make me realised that i wan to be a designer..and i would not wan anything or anyone to stop me from persuing my dreamz...mr ho was our tour guide fro the dae.he boght us to de dark room,n other room tat we won't be able to enter without him cuz he got some of his friends hu has de pass to enter the rooms to bring us about..after tt we went to tm for our "lunch"..he belanja us...thankz hor...den walk around de malls and bought a pouch to put my hp n cards...den amos4 bought de same patterns but different prints.den moody...den walk ard feeling so restless...den finaly dey decide to go home..
den go home lorz...den at home...chat den slp lorz..

sundae,went to johor(hehe)-->syuk u shld noe y.....den pamper myself wid movies...cuz i feel like shit fer de past daes...wen to watch in her shoes,broken flowers n more......den go home late at nite lite tt...den chong do dnt...till nvr slp....den in class still can hyper...my fwenz oso cannot understand..hahaz..

mondae,went to skool...veri hyper..cuz i slp fer de first 3 period...hehez...morning ritual n 2 periods of malay lesson...shit i din do my malay test!i onli wrote my name n wet to slp...hahaz...nvm lahz...den do class deco...freaking nice lahz our back notice board...thankz to hasif...den no malay remedial...but i stayed back to wait fer nani n manda n sharon cuz dey got..so in de mean time i went to c ms wong to ask her fer maths...cuz i hav not been attending skool on n off..i pass my mathz tet...even tho i din do any practice nor studying..hahaz
tuesdae nothing much lahz...like normal lorz..onli tt i gt back my ss n i passagain i duin study for it nor listen in class.soa far i hav not been listening in ss fer this yr...i onli slp or do my own stuff or listen to music or chat wid my fwenz..hahaz...den gt hme chong do dnt again cuz mr koh noisy le..den study for ss n chem test...slp at 11 or 12 +,woke up at 1...do math hwkz,malay tuition hwkz(yeah malay...my malay like fark...wad to do)...den went online t do dnt research...do until 6.15am...den went to took a bath n wen to skool..

wednesdae,took de test geo n chem..geo was ok lah...but chem was ez..hehe...-->my lane der can make 1 photcopy shop sia...hahaz...we will cnfirm be good at tt business...hahaz...den gt math grp study...sharon tried to pull my chair wen i was abt to sit...but i saw..*wuek*:p haha...den went to nani der...den went off together..den go home slp...nw jus woke up..hahaz...

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todae did not atten skool again.i dunno if i shall put is as a good way or bad...i realli dunnoe...haix...todae feel so confused...hiax..

it all started at 6+ wen my mum woke mi up to go skool...i tld her i dun wish to attend skool den she sae ok...den i went out my other rm n tok my bag n went to my bedroom back...i took out a slip of paper out of my bag.its a referal letter frm de poly clinic for mi to c kkh...den i tot to myself should i go or should i not...den within sec i doze off to lala land...so i din keep de paper in my bag back...den at ard 8+ wen my mum wan to tek de dirty clothes out of my room to wash she saw de paper...she began to make alot of noise...she sae why all this important thing keep it away frm mi...why u wan find trouble ahz...den she nag n nag ahz...den i took my mp3 n on my computer...all i put loud 2 so i hear mixture of music instead of her nagging...den she at 9+ she finish washing,hanging n cleaning de house she woke mi up.she force mi to go to c de doc...i din want but she force mi...wid wad?not giving mi 2 mth pocket money...so i like fark lahz....den i go lor... reach der at ard 11+ to 12 i think...all de way i din tok to my mum...piss off sia...den reach de hospital..wait n wait n wait...den finally came my turn...den der is 2 doc in de rm...haiz...den ask2 qs all tt den check my body all tt den 1 of dem sae mayb dey need to ward mi...den i sae i dun wan...i hav to finish my dnt..i wan to b designer...den my mum argue wid mi in de doc rm u r not gonna b a designer...designer no future...den i sae my pro lahz i wan b wad...aft all i grow up to persue my dreamz nt urs...ever1 has a chance to live their lives to b hu dey wanna b...so why shld i listen to u.. anyway u urself dun like wen ur parents n siblings control u abt hu u wan to b right...so u noe de feelings so y are u perventing mi frm ersuing my dreamz?den she sae cuz i'm a sick child...den i sae so u r looking dwn on mi?!u think wad sick ppl can't persue their dreamz mehz...de mor u argue de mor i wan to b a designer.cuz i wan to prove u tt i'll do wadever it tekz to persue my dreamz...den aft we col dwn...de doc call mi go out de rm cuz dey wan to tok to my mum alone...den went out lorz...went out den aft awhile came in back den my mum face look sad...den went out de doc rm my mum told mi tt i hav to go for another major operation..haiz....den i was like wen?den she sae sum time dis yr...

den i distance myself away frm my mum...den i start to think to myself...alot lahz i think abt..until my heard like wan to burst...haiz...den i sae to myself wad wg wid god manz...why every yr i gt major exam sure gt major prob on tt yr...
p4 -streamin :i vomit blood,went in n out of hospital wasted abt 5 mth of skool but i made it to em2
p6-psle:gt accident miss 3 mth of skool,went tru n fro to de police station to ans qs all tt,write tetimonal all tt..
Sec4-olevel:nw wan go fer another major opt.i dunnoe hw long will i miss skool...now onli i miss alot of lesson.den almost every 2 wk gt need go c doc...den de doc in charge of mi dun wrk on sat n sun...den everytime hav to ponteng skool to c de doc...1 dae nvr cum skool miss alot lesson le...wad mor every 2 wk...haiz...i dunno lahz...so freaking sterss up...

lucky slack ard wid nas,syuk,ein n hanna...den gt dun think abt it abit...but i still think...den i din tok much oso but i gt luff at de joke dey make lorx...wen dey saw mi wid de head scarf on...dey jus couldn't believe their eyes n tot dey were dreaming...esp hanna nas n ein reaction hahaz...funni de...but tt still dun stp mi frm thinking ant de opt...infact i'm still lthinking nw...dunno lahz..haiz...:(
go fer major opt can't go fer major exam.tis will lead to no poly n retek o's den bad image like tt to de repot bk ltr...haiz
go fer major exam can't go fer major opt this will lead to may gt brighter future but i dunno if i can make it tt long to persue my dreamz..
haiya think too much ahz...but i realli can''t stp thinking de...

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jus finish blog hopping...welll i dunnoe if this is a good thing or wad...but i jus found out that my distance grandfather hu is my classmate's grandfather has passed away...i feel like a total fucker...cuz i as so called part of his family dunnoe abt this matter till todae...i noe that de grand father was sick before...but i din noe that he passed away...haiz...feel like a total ass man..mayb if i'm a outsider i'll understand ahz...haiz...reflect back i feel so bad cuz last year wen hari raye...my parents wanted to go visit his my cuz grandfther but i said i'm tired n der are some other time to visit dem...but we din managed to visit...cuz later on my parents got busy with their work n i got busy with working n hangging out wid my peeps...argh i was too selfish...i should gow up to b a fish monger manz...den nw he no longer here...haiz...feel so bad...anaywayz... i'll pray fer his safty n hope tat god forrgive wadever sins he has commited n lighten his "seksa kubur n akhirat".Amin.

okie after reading my dist cuz blog...i feel like fark...so i thing todae is not a happi dae even tho i had luff so much todae...jus cuz of 1 thing i feel total bad n feel i should not be proud of myself i jus feel like i am an ass hu is not supposed or be allowed even to leave on this wonderful earth...i should be far off dead manz...haix...anaywayz...i'm sick...haiz i think i go skool no sick...i go hm onli sick...mayb cuz i'm troubled at hm bahz...dunno lahz...anyway dun wih to tok abt it...n dun dare to ask anything abt wad i'm troubled in..haiz...feel so fucked up manz...okie lahz...dun realli hav de mood to blog alrd...

once again sori hasif...i din no ur grandfather passed away...till todae aft reading ur blog...so sori...jus pray fer his safty in de other world n hope his happi der ...he hav help my family so much i'm so thankful fer him...he is realli a great man...his sumone i realli look up to...eventho i dunnoe him tt well...frm his character i noe his a good man...

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woohooo...1 more mth to my birthdae...yeah i'm counting down to it...and it will be my sweet 16...god gracious i'm 16!but nevertheless i'm still behaving like a small kid...hahaz...mayb i'm old on de outside but young at heart..hahaz... good to be like a kid tho...cuz u won't have much problem...

Anywayz,todae i din went skool...partly becuz i wasn't feeling well,hate skool nw adaez n din finish my dnt...anyway hu can finish it in 1 dae...u give us de paper...explain to us wad is written on de paper wid de exact same words written on de paper issued..like as if we can't read...den jus tell us to do analysis of theme..u expect us to do tt....pls lahz...like tt u call urself teacher fer wad sia...haiyo...den we gave him a sloppy job...cuz we din hav any clue hw to go abt doin..den he told us to redo de whole farking thing in jus 1 dae...wth u think we are...summor aft skool gt study grp/remedial lehz...

ytd in skool i slept in math lesson abit,malay lesson n ss lesson...lucky fer ss lesson i woke up jus nice...if nt i think i won't go fer assembly...cuz none of my clasemate realised tt i was still in class..cuz i sat quitely slepping in 1 conner of de class room..hahaz..den prefect investiture..den wen dey did some song singing...den dis farking fat gerl hu use her skirt damn short...den wen she dance n stretch out her legs can c her ugly,hedious looking thighs...hahaz...den we were lyk wooohoo....hahaz...den i told manda sia lahz manda i hot sia...hahaz...den we all,all luff...like pls lahz...u wan show off ur watever part of u...pls be reminded to check if ur tt part is nice to c nt...if u c its nt nice...den dun show it off...or if u are blind...ask help frm ur fwenz abt it...

aft assembly tot f wanting to eat at skool cafe cuz we r sick of de canteen food...den wen we went up...de cafe open at 2.30...den we gt remedial at 2.30 so we can't go eat der lor...so we went to nearest kopitiam n went to eat der lorz...den 2.30we still eating...den went back to skool late..hahaz...den went to class mi n adeline tok permision to go find mr koh...den wen we came back onli left abt 10 mormin till remedial over...hahaz...den took our fwenz paper n copy...den can go off le..hahaz...so ytd de remedial was like photocopy lesson..hahz...

aft tt meet manda,nani n sharon at foyer...den went hm together...den nani wan go slack but in de end she can't cuz her tuition cher dun let her skip de class...so din slack lor...den i pei manda go wm ...den i went off hm aft tt...den was cought in de heavy rain...den reach hm ,watch tv fer while den suddenli doze of to lala land ...den woke up felt so freaking giddy.......was suppose to do my dnt but i couldn't lift my eye ...so slpt tru...den i finnally woke up at 2am...den sms wid syuk fer while den doze off while half way relpying him...hahaz...den wen i woke up i saw redzal sma mi,...hahz...den reply him sori...n told him tt i was aslp at tt point of time wen he msg mi...den told my mum i dun wish to go skool todae..den she gave mi her card n told mi to c doc...den ard 7 to 8 like tt wen to c doc...den while wating fer my turn i doze off to lala land again...den i miss my no...so i hav to requee...haiz...den wait lor....den at ard 2 like tt den reach hm...den nani told mi amos3 were bored cuz i wasn't ard...wah...i'm touched...hahaz... better gt goin i haven't start on my dnt yet..

PolY OpeN HoUsE:
Singapore PolY: 19 -21 jan 2006
TeMaSek poLy: 19-21jan 2006
NaNyanG PolY: 19-21jan 2006
NAFA: 9-11 Feb 2006
LaSaLLe: 20-21 Feb 2006

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wahz...todae damn fun....morning at 1am still doin my revision...den ard 3 like tt den stop...chatted wid syuk till eh 5+ -6 like tt...den toss n turn on my bed finally managed to gt a nap...i slp at 6...den woke up 7...onli to find tt i was late..tot of nt cuming skool den remember gt test...haiz....so i draged my lazy ass butt to skool...den reach der...de morning ritual gt star wars frm sci center cum...hahaz...took tt chance fer mi to slp...den slp nice2...den time fer malay..haiz...2 pirods summor...den manda din cum den my bk in her locker...

so i went to borrow nani's.. thankz hor nani...aft malay gt ss...ss is test...anyhow crap lahz...wahz...den most of de tym in class i dun hav de mood to study..i dunn like ahz.. mayb no ajay,vic,nicki all tt ard like akward de...dunno lahz..but anaywayz... aft skool i din went fer malay remedial...hahaz...den went to nani's place to slack awhile...den meet sha ren at interchange...den we head to woodland...den reach der eat bk...

den awhile later de jiayi cum...den aft waiting fer so long syuk came...den we head to de place where we gt to tek a free bus to Rp..reach der...first ting we saw was a guy i think...on de rock climbing wid a funni pose...den we started luffing...den aft tt head off to c my sis...den she give us de goodie bag...wahz gt maple stori de cd leh...den syuk go eat first...

den sharon n jiayi went to wonder ard first..den mi n nni n syuk still at der looking at de mag.den aft syuk finish eating we went to c a movie showed by de rp ppl...go der gt free popcorns!haha...den aft de movie dey give us sticker n pen to write our dream

i wrote:to hav a simple n happi life forever
nani wrote:she wan to b a movie producer
syuk wrote:he wan to find hogwarts in never never land in the kingdom of narnia

den i ask dem de pen we tek or return...den dey sae return...haha...tt de first time i met No.15 n teddy..hahaz...he wave mi bye wen i go off frm de room...den i sae bye lor...whaz...freaking cute lehz he...hahaz..okie den we walk ard to c courses n cca...n oso to find nasri de project wrk...but couldn't...we end up in sum sonic music de course or sumting...wahz...

de person stand infront of de cam...wahz kaos syiok sendIri sia...den we all luff at his stupidity...hahaz...like idiot sia...he make himself like a fool...haiyo...hahaz...den aft tt went to de diff cca n course booth den we went offf...

den while we was walking den de no 15 n de gang wave at mi..hahhaz...
den i wave back lor...haha...
Den board de bus i wave at 15 den he wave back.....

HE WAVE AT MI ONLI HOR NOT TO US HOR SHARON...
HIS MINE!
SHARON U TEK DE POLO ONLY!
!NANI DE TEDDY ONLY!
MINE IS 15!!!!!

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hmm...been busy latey wid dnt...wahz kaoz...damn it manz...so okie i'll update u what i hav been doing fer de last 3 daez...

Fridae, aft skool went back to my hse wid nani tek my things ...den nani use de com fer while den ard2 i think we went off to wm to meet syuk n nas...den went to eat at kfc...den watch narnia...in de theater damn freaking cold...summor i nvr use jacket sia...din to tt it would be so cold...den aft tt went hm straight cuz i gt religious class...nas went hm wid his bike,nani walk ,mi n syuk kena tek mrt..ahahaz...den go hm..purposly slack 2 relax2 gt ready....relax2 go skool...tek bus summor...purposly wait 2 bus left den i tek de last bus...haha fucker sia mi...den took pic of mi in tudong...hahaz...i fell in love wid myself..hhaaz...din noe i look cute,SWEET n innocent...hmm tt sum1 shld noe why i highlight de wrd sweet...cuz i kembang 1 continent le tt dae..hahaz

saturdae ,woke up late...supose to go to farjar at 9 .n i told nani to meet mi at my hse at 8..
n tt point of time she rang de bell den i woke up...hahaz...den let nani use de com while i bathe n gt ready all...by de time 9 le...den went off...alight at cck...went to eat mac first...cuz since we late why nt make ourself more late...hahaz...den we reach der 10 0r 11...but we paiseh go in...so rang up redzal to accompany us...jus nice redzal on de way to skool...den aft tt went to c my bro...den we decided nt to stay fer de dunnoe wat shit talks.so we jus left..but we did inform redzal first lahz...cuz like nt nice mahz..pppl accompany u den u go off first..den aft tt went to lot1 again cuz nani call mi go aisiah birthdae party...den go lor...bought her present...den went der...lucky i go der sia...cuz tt dae nani n sharon gt into a small fight...but lucky it was nt fer long...but if i weren't der nani will feel shity mahz...yahz...den aft went to de pary meet up wid fahmy ...den slack ard...den go hm..nani follwed mi hm cuz she left her bks n shoes at my hse...den wen reach my hse i was suprised to c all my cuz in my hse making a awful lot of mess...argh...n de whole hse stink...cuz dey play in de rain...cum into my hse wid mud..den cum my hse call my mum cook n went to bathe..wahz koaz...den went in de toilet de whole toilet smell of mud...lucky gt air freshner...i go spray it...den i did my dnt...den half way nani went hm...den aft tt did sum revision...till abt 3am+...den finally on my fone saw msg...den reply lorz...den din slp at all ahz...

todae,woke up at 9 wen de tuition cher came..hahaz...but i did bathe ald..i went to bathe at 7.30 n read de newspaper n took a nap fer a while frm 8-9am...den wen she came...i wash my face n went to study lor...it was boring frm de veri start till de veri end...aft de tuition slack abt...dne went to do dnt again...den study...den dnt again...den chat...den watch tv...den nw here blogging...i'm gonna chnge my skin aft i post tis i think..hahaz..

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Been awhile since i last blog.Let mi just recall what had happen yesterdae and todae.If i were told to summurised this two daez with two words i would go wid"FUCKED UP".yahz tt is de bez way i could describe it...

the dae before yesterdae i was busy doin my dnt homeworkz on de net.And other shits that my teacher told us to do.if ain the o level mark i would hav jus forget it manz...but too bad it is ... so i jus dragged my lazy ass to de com n try to finish up de hwkz asign to me as much as i could.. till abt 1 +...den i called manda...den nasri was on de line but i din noe...okie...big deal nasri was on de line n she confrence mi...so scolded her fer telling nasri tt i was sick...bla...bla..bla...den tot of confrencing nasri,manda,syuk n mi...

but syuk din want...okie lor...den i told manda tt i dun wan to confrence oso as i had dnt to finish up...den went off to do my dnt...whie doin my dnt i remember tt i promise to give syuk a call..so as soon as i finish my hwkz...or mayb as soon as i dun hav de mood to do my hwkz anymore...i gave syuk a call...so we chatted like normal till late lor...den went to skool.i tok tok tok...den i told manda tt i called syuk aft i put dwn de fone on her... but i dunnoe wad de reason why i told her...i think she asked mi wad time did i slp tt dae b4 went to skool...

den she was not happi wid my answer...so wad de hell lor...lyk tt oso nt happi...okie i noe its my fault...but i did realised my mistake n said sori to her...but den she had a huge rock in her head...eh no she HAVE a huge rock in her head...tt she dun wan to accept my apology...but than i told myself to let her cool off first...aft awhile hu noes she will be okie...den i talk to her like normal but she ignore mi...so i gt fed up as that dae my tolerance level was damn freaking low..so me having pebbles in my head oso dun wan to give in n let bygons be bygons..so both nw are not in talking terms...

Actually i din care abt it till aft skool wen i sms her den she took such a long time to reply mi...okie tt i dun care hu noes tt she hav sumting big goin on...but the thing tt i couldn't accept is that she called nasri to reply mi instead of she replying mi...its fine wid mi if u dun reply my sms but to ask ppl reply fer u...tt i can't accept it...Realli if u dun wish to reply or talk to mi den fuck it mans...but to ask ppl to reply on ur behalf..fuck off lahz..den nasri was de 1 hu tried to help us gt into gd terms wid each other...nasri dun waste ur times...its hard to let rock n pebbles to gt in good terms once again when der's fire btw dem ald... ohz yahz i did my malay oral...confirm i "pass " de...

hmmm...todae morning at 12am talk to nani while i did my malay hwkz as i'm gonna doze off soon...and syuk finish wrk at 1am...haiz..den say wan to talk aft he reach hm...but den i doze off first even b4 1am...cuz was too "healthy"...den realised his msg wen i woke up tis morning...hahaz...den reply him...den went off to shower n off to skool...todae reach skool late...but yet i was de first person to left de skool....cuz i din hav de mood to study...n most of my subject books are in manda's locker...n manda din cum to skool so i c no point in me attending skool without de books so i went to G.O n ask to go hm...mayb tml if manda cum skool i will ask her fer de keys n i'll tek my books out of her locker...it will be ez fer mi ...i guess...i can jus dumped my books under my desk...ltr will be having malay tuition..farkz manz...

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wad shall i write...realli dunno lehz...wait i think first lor.....................................................................................................................................................................................
okie gt it le...

ytd,woke up at 9 cuz meeting nani at 10...cuz we tot de course start at12...and we tot wan be gd lahz...cum earlier...den nearli to 10 nani recieve a called frm izah i think...saying tt de course at 9 n its started ald...den we was like fark nt 12 mehz...den i rush dwn to bb mrt n meet nani...frm der took cab dwn to kallang..wahz...lucky called sharon ...if i follow de add nasri give mi...i think dey finish le we still haven't cum sia...hahaz..on de cab called pizza hut to confrm de time fer de course...cuz we realli dun believe it manz..like we wan to b earli but end up de late wan..den suddenli recieve a sms frm huda...den she kinda scold us...den sae sori lorz...

she told us to go back...cuz shesae de ppl won't let us in...but we dun care...we jus continue on...we won't turn ard without a try...cuz if we try at least we noe we tried our bez to cum eventho we r late...n wen we reach der ppl dey allow us t go in...was happi...den it ended earlier den de tym stated too...aft tt nani n mi went to my hse...den she use my com while i study,slp den tok to my peepz...den finnally ard 6 i think she went off to meet manda...den i at hm...chatt tok on fone...surf de net...

den sum1 finnally noe hw to use msn...i dun like sae name ahz...wen i meet i wil point...den keep on nudgeing mi...summor play my name nudgeya..wad de...nvm lahz..oso cool...mayb ltr gt child will name her nudgeya oso...unique manz de name..hahaz....den show him happi tree fwenz de website...den he like it manz..hahaz

todae...
woke up late...den start tuition late...den tuition oso like wan dunwan ...cuz i was sick...den she cannot tahan cuz she see tt i can't concentrate cuz i gt a bad headache n fever cuz ytd aft kena rain i din went to wash my hair...but i gt told nani to do it...haiyo stm man mi...den lyk fark lor...den oso later fer wrk alr...cuz my stupid tuition lor...den called pizza hut alot tym no 1 pick up...den until i fell aslp...cuz cannot stand le...den nw jus woke up...so todae din do much lor

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ass why you kay are eye tea edge eye ass eye ass ee ass pee ee sea eye eh elle elle why aff oh are why oh you...

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todae was kinda beta den yesterdae..evenso i still prefer working...everytime in skool i will think of working..i dunno why lahz...but i jus think of tt de...todae i noe abt sumting..wahx...feel that person is 1 hell of a bitch man...but anywayz can't comment on her lots cuz i dunno her that well even if she's in my class...but i reali was shock...cuz she seems nice n sweet...nevertheless,u can't judge its book by its cover...

hm..todae mathz did sum w/s...did pretty well hmm...kinda shock tat i still remember lots of formula eventho i din touch de books wen skool holidaes..den went fer dnt...dnt cher gaves us MnMs...den he gave us de o'level format fer de folios n artefacts...can't wait to noe what this year o'level theme is abt..tho i'm eger but yet i'm afraid...aft dnt was ss...ss was freaking boring..i slept in de class...whoohoo...thankz ms lim fer letting mi side by de side covered by so many big size ppl...so wen i slp de teachers all can't see mi..hahaz...n i sit by de socket...so i can bring hp charger n charge my fone in class... whohoo...hahaz...

aft skool, went to bank cuz sharon wan to withdraw money...den accompany her go withdraw den go buy bagz...aft tt went to kfc n eat...den went hm...walk hm all drenched up...n my skool blouse became see tru...cuz i din bring umbrella n its raining cats n dogs...so i jus walk lorz...walk...freaking cold...cuz i was having fever..n yet i 'm drenched in de rain...jus suit my mood...wen i'm dwn it rains...wen i'm happi its sunny...thankz god fer making mi feel tat i'm nt alone...cuz wever i'm dwn u cried fer me...cuz i dun hav guts to cry out my own tears..n wen i'm happi u shine de sun to make my dae...jus perfect...

at hm...aft reaching hm...went to finish up all my hwkz..n did revision...n nw jus ended...but gt 1 hr break in btw ...i revise tru all my sec 3 mathz topic le... tml its time fer mi to practice itz...den next week it will be chemistry...tt's wad i'm planning hopefully i'll follow it..

**attention**i'm gonna hav fun tis week...next wk on i'll b goin hm straight le to study...gonna buck up...n get de result i wan n mus try my veri bez to beat (ass why you kay are eye)hahaz...

frankly speaking i hate skool yesterdae...jus wasn't great at all.repulsion.totally..frm de start till de end...hate it...i dunno if itz me or wad...jus dun hab de mood study at all...todae ltr skool start lesson le...haiz...nw can't slp again snd i dun wan to bother ppl slp so, yahz, here i am blogging filling up my time till i feel tired n slp...our skool change de principal den nw de new principal wahx...damn big-mouthed...he can tok n tok n tok as if ders no other dae to tok anymore...if wad he's toking was great or wad nvm...but wahx kaoz...first dae of skool lecture wahx...sainz lyk fark man...thank god tt i'll will b wid him fer onli 1 yr..if nt i'll kill myself manz...and mr koh told us tt on de 6/1/2006 he n mrs wan will be going to moe to tek our o'level question paper fer dnt..n we hav to finish de 60 pages folio n artefact by sept...

n we would nt hv any JUNE HOLS!!!argh...k nvm...i'll bare wid it...i mus do well in my o's and make myself proud n my fwenz n family proud of mi...n make those ppl hu look dwn on mi think twice on wad dey hav said...my main aim is to pass my malay...n luff n those teaches hu look dwn n sae abt my malay...tho i'm malay but i'm nt pure malay so its preety okie fer mi nt being gd at my malay wad...anywayz...i dun give a damn if i'm nt pure malay or nt...wad i care is to do my bes n strive in my o;s n giv my 110% on my o's...

anyhow,i've nt beeing slping great lately..i dunnoe wad's wrg...but i jus wan to be betta...i dun wan at de begining of de year onli gt prob...hate it manz..headache, flu,fever on n off...wahx itz killing mi manz...hope tis won't prolong n affect my studies...i'm gonna start my studying next wk...o yahz tis is de last wk i can slack...nx wk onwards,i'll b goin hm earli n study...no more playing le...its an important yr tis yr...hav to b more wiser n think of my future...i wan gt gd grades fer mi n nt fer otherz...

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Todae again i waoke up late...yikes...n my hse was in a big mess...so i caled nani to wait dwnstairs whle i go a quick clearing of ma hse...n as soon as i'm off de toilet aft bath...i called her...so sori nani...den she went to my rm n use de com to do her ss...den recieve sms frm syuk ...he said wan cum over join us watch de movie...den in de end nvr cuz dey fell aslp...lol...den aft she finish we went out to de living rm to watch harry potter...den i slp toward de end...cuz i watch it alot of time and i sain of it de..so as soon as de show is over she woke mi up n we went back to my rm n use de com...she finish de second half of de ss hwkz...den chatted on msn...wid manda nas and sum of her other fwenz...den i slp...aft tt my mum woke mi up...den woke up lorz...den went back to slp...den woke up chatted wid nas,manda ,zul and som other fwenz...den went to pack my bag...n yahz here i am..blogging..eventho my hwkz is nt finish..nvm...i'm planing to gt cought fer cuming skool late,my hair n my hwkz...hahaz...okie lahz...nth much todae...so yahz tt is...FARK LAHZ TML SKOOL....SO DUN LOOK FOWARD TO IT MANZ...ARGH....

todae is de second dae of new yr..wrk...replace sharon...cuz she went to kl..hope she's having a great time der...anaywaz...todae morning at 1 am tok to manda till 4+ bhz...until i suddenli sleep..den nani was suppose to cum my hse at 11 + but den she reach my hse at 12 +...i dun mind lahz...cuz 11 +oso i still slping...even wen 12+ she came i jus woke up by her ringing de door bell..hahaz...sowie nani..den woke up...did a quick bath..

n on de co fer nani...den she ate wid mi n my dad n bro at de living rm...tho she's scare of my dad...which i dunno why...mayb jus paiseh or...i noe de feelingz...but my dad hack wan lorz...den aft eating went back to my rm n she went on wid de om while i continue slping...i told her to wake mi up at3...cuz gt wrk at5...went off my hse at 3.30...reach der earli ...ate fer while den off to start wrk...ohz...wen we came...poy,salihin,rezwan all is clearing de christmas deco...so fun...c dem stress cleaning de stainz...cuz dunno hu past up de deco using double sided tape...den dey have to scrub it off...hahaz...i still gt tek piz of it...hahaz...myb ltr or wenever i free i'll upload itz ..fer ya'll to c yahz..den wrk,wrk,wrk...den 1 of de customer is suria de actress..i dunno but nani noe...she tld mi..den i'm de 1 seving n tek dheir orders...nw i noe y she so chio...de blood mix lahz...den de child i think...wahx damn freaking cute lahz...

den i wan to call ezan...but i dunno why...fer a split sec i fergot her name n i dunno why my stupid mouth go cal her huda...lol..i dunno y sia...den gt sumting happen to nani..hahaz...so funni lahz...de whole dae wrk gt luffter...so fun..den syuk n manda cum dwn...to hlp pull dwn de christmas deco...but no1 sms den nt to cum cuz all de christmas deco are all cleared...den dey came...n was suprised to c it all done n cleared..hahaz...k byez...wan slp le..hahaz...yawns**

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
Nw new year le...muz hav new resolution...so this is it..
-> tok less vulgarities
-> study more
-> slack less
-> no mor skip class
-> spent less
-> closer n understanding my family more
-> closer n understanding my fwenz more
->try my bez nt to be late fer skool..(but to mi its beta late den nvr...so i dun mind myself being late..hahaz)
->purposely wan kena cought fer my hair on de first dey of skool n kena detention(WhooHooo)
->try my bez to live up wid this "OthErZ B4 selF"(hpe i can do it Bahz)

wad happen in 2005:

gt over him...finally!!!:) yet wen i went back frm overseas gt another heartbreak..left him wid a rock in my heart...so heavy n yet i need to continue on my journey...but i slowly begining to learn n understand de true meaning of luv...mayb nt fully understand but partly ,yahz..

gt closer to amos4...became like family le...its my second family bahz...feeel so happiee..found some new fwenz at wrk...So fun wkring n getting to noe dem...yahz..and yet ppl mistake mi wid some of dem...dunno y lehz..anyways gt lots of fwenz in 2005...anad i love "BUTANG" dey r such a wonderful fwenz!:)thankz guys fer bing by mi....wenever i gt probZ...scared to loose dem tho...cuz some of dem are quiting...haiz...

skool is fun...but hate de teacher tho...esp malay class...geo is damn bored...cuz of de monotone teacher...overall is kinda fun cuz gt sum daez amos4 purposely cum skool 8am...den kena cought by dm all together...kena detention oso together... BULLY lotZa LoTza TeachErz..N i Love it..hahaz...but yet gt closer to sum teacher tho...

Wrk!wrk!wrk!itz SUPER FUN!FUN!FUN!JUS LOVE IT!frm begining till de end...jus love it ever seconds...tho sumtimez de customer lyk fuck....but customer is owayz right...so yahz...jus apoligised n do as dey ask lor..i luv itz wen its pack u can feel de atmosphere so Gd...jus luv serving dem...dey happi i happi...tho sumtimez i hate de ppl wrking der...but i'm trying to like dem...even if dey dun like mi i dun mind...as ong as i'm wrking..i'll put our differences aside n jus treat dem de way dey shld b treated...oh yahz...dun expect mi to pick up ur calls or reply ur sms wen i'm wrking...cuz i'm a professional n i dun reply nor pick up calls wen i'm wrking...hahaz...

todae:
wrk was fun lorZ...i wrk doubbly hard todae cuz i noe i goin off soon le...feel so freaking sad abt it...but yet its 1 of de most happie daez of my wring...or mayb everytime i wrk i enjoy it..tt's why i can't bare to leave pizza hut...jus love it...itz like my second hm...we do our hwkz...eat...slack...tok...study all der...jus fun...n tt de place where amos four gt closer n became like each other's second family memberz...n we oso gt close to butang....which is fun...dey r jus plain crazy...jus de way i like it..hahaz...todae pizza hut no water!:( i dunno if itz pizza hut onli or de whole building no water...den we can't make latte,wash all tt...de customer went to de toilet sae dey isn't any water...den i told dem we pizza hut gt sum probz...n de whole place no water...den dey sae orh...den i told dem sori...den dey all seems so understanding n sae itz ok..c dem smiling jus complete my hearts n joy of serving dem..den syuk n nas came dwn cuz it was my last dae...den in de end i sae i dun wan slack cuz i wan go hm watch tv..hahaz..dey den keep on sae mi lahz...cuz syuk all de way frm amg mo kio cum at 10 + i think...den i pang seh dem...hahaz...sori2...but gt fauzie ahz...he sooo cute..hehe..den jus nice struck new yr i send syuk msg wid v vile launguage..hahaz...

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