9Friday, December 30, 2005
todae woke up at 11.15 wen i was supose to go wrk at 12....rush2 den told my mum to call a cab fer mi...den chong dwn to btp...den reach der jus nice...went to do svc fer an hour...eventhogh my face was black like hell...i dunnoe why but i jus feel like fark...i was der an yet its as if i was invisible...cuz everytime i wan to tek orders,clear table,set table,serve customer...zhen yi will cum n kpo....was like wad de fishball n brinjals man....its freaking ittitating lorz...he this his long john long i scared ahz...go die lahz...den piss le went to c de wash area...it was piled up wid so many stuff an yet not a single soul did de wash...so i decided to do wash...cuz i feel i dun seems to b doing anyting at de svc area...so i went to poy n told hi tt 'll help him to do de wash...so he said okie...den off i went to de wash!
wash! wash!wash!i wash wid all my hearts...noeing tt soon i won't get to do washing at pizza hut anymor...so i keep on telling de anutie to fill mi wid lots of stuff to wash!she even tot i was crazy...cuz usually no1 like to do wash...its jus so happens tt i'm nt 1 of dem bahz...wash!wash!wash!den wen ein went in he he was shocked to c tt i hav wash alot of plates widin a few minutes...den i jus smiled at him...i wasn't in de mood to tok de whole dae...mayb becuz of de thing tt bothering mi ...i dunnno...
den tis big size guy went to help mi do wash...den i was like fark lahz...wan help help lahz...den keep de water running den kena mi lehz...but anyways he,nas, and alomst every1 including poy was shock to c my new HAIRCUT! sum sae its nice...sum din give any comment at all cuz i din ask anywayz...
aft wash!i went to make my speg. n i ate in de function rm...chatted wid nas n ein fer while but i went off first cuz i need to go hm n rush to de airport to fetch my cuz she'll be cuming dwn to stay fer a few daez n off she flew...tml oso my family is goin to send off my cuz to further his studies...but i won't be able to cuz i hav wrk...haiz...realli like pizza hut alot..but can't affort to forgo my studies jus becuz of jobs..but i wil wrk fer pizza hut back aft my o'levels...
i realli dun understand why sumting i like hav to end so fast...i jus found a new door of hapiness(pizza hut)...but nw i hav to force myself to quit it..i realli dun wish to but i can't affort any distraction fer my o'levels too... mayb i'll jus hav to find a new door of happinss tt's waiting fer mi...life itz haard but we hav to learn to accept it as it is part n parcle of our lifes...
nani & sharon:
i dun wish u too brood over de matter any longer...its no use thinking n crying ...its nt gonna cum back...n if it does u'll noe its nt true...jus let it go...ppl cum in out of ya life...made sweet memories ...tis sweets memories keep it close to ya heart u'll nvr noe wen u'll need it...
manda:
hmm...mayb i hav nt been der fer u...i dunnnoe....mayb we r nt tt close anymor...i dunnoe...mayb u chang or mayb i change...i realli dunnoe....but wat it is...u n i r apart of amos four...no matter hu u r...hw fuck ur or my life is... hu is ur fwenz...i'lll b here...if u think tt u can't open up to mi like u used to...wid wadeva reason....i'll tell u wad...no matter wad ..i'll always put amos4 first as my piroty....cuz we r amos4...we r ne close...i dun wan becuz of sumting u dun wan to open up to mi...den jus keep it to urself n hur urself...i noe nw u r deciving urself wid u noe wad lahz hor...
STOP IT!!!u told m nt to decive my feelings wen he came dwn to spore to confess to mi...so i din decive myself...nw u r deciving urself...hw contradicting is tis...wen u tell sum1 to do sumting n wen it cum to u u do de oppsite of wad u told ppl to do...u noe tt deciving its nt de way of happiness...if u wan c others happi...c urself happi...i'll b happi if u r happi...u fwenz will b happi if u r happi...like u sae we'll shre de happiness if 1 or mor amos4 is happi...we'll carry de bruden if 1 or mor amos4 is troubled wid problemz...nw i jus wan u to wake up...n c fer urself...u give g advices but wen it cumz to u u do de totaly oppsite...i noe its hard...but bit by bit will eventually becum alot...gt wad i mean...so do wad's right n STOP DECIVING URSELF!!!!!
**i'm nt scolding or anyting ...i'm jus reminding u...**
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