9Tuesday, July 12, 2005
i reali nvr tot tat we will go this stage of arguments...i feel tt i can't realli rely on u all as much as i did before...i feel tt u all dun seem to understand mi...okie yah...partly may b i'm to blame but not all...if u sae u had /have problems...i have mine too but of course if u think of it too much it will be bad...and sharon i tot u knew the family problems over de june holidaes..i tot u would understand ...i tot tt by being happi in school i will lighten de burden of my fwenz hu had/have problems...i tot i would make dem happi in school n nt think abt their problems...n hav fun...but i was totaly wrg...now i learnt ONE IMPORTANT THING...not to make asumation wen u dun even noe...but de fact still state that all humans are not perfect and why u all expect so much on mi...firstly do u noe ALL MY FAMILY PROBLEMS... hav my sickness problem?my fwenship problem...my school problems...my class problems...if u donot tt all this problems do u other to ask...pls tell mi frankly...do u?do u noe in de first place...everyone has their own problems...but u should not show a black face to school every dae...do u?u all dun even have sickness to care...but i do...yeah too bad tt i has it...but i hav to face reality...but do i bother to care all this wen i'm wid u all no..tt because i wan to make u all happi n at de sametime have fun...i noe we said to ourself tt if we hav probles tell one another...n let de others lighten de burden....but wad burden can u carry...if it was my sickness,my family.....what?! tell mi....what burden can u lighten?!hav u ever tot of hw i felt...no i shall put it...have u even ever tot of mi once in a good way...of all de time i 've been wid u all...all de good deeds tt i hav done even if dey r onli handful...hv u ever appriciate it...do u noe tt i preayed for u all's safety evey night...do u noe tt i think of u all eveytime in class..do u noe how much i wait with anticipation fer recess n aft skool to be wid u all...do u noe all tis time we r arguing i jus want to shout out tt i'm sorri n put all de blame on mi...jus to make u all feel better n lifes goes on....but wenever i see u all...all of de stuff tt i wanted to tell u all jus can't gt out of my mouth as i see all de fuming red face upon mi...
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