9Thursday, June 16, 2005

hmm...todae...i slept at ard 6 am...den i was awaken by de noise cause my dad gt a phone call...tt my mum gt prob..so we rush to de place n c if she was ok...den at ard 11 + den reach hm back...den i suppose to meet manda at 1 but i was so sleepy...so i told her i nt metting her cause i sleepin...den i woke up at ard 2 or 3 cause i hungry...den go find food eat..hehex..mi grow fat liaoz...hmm...den slack ard at hm...i mayb tml go on holidae but nt yet confirm cause mayb ders a change in plan cause my mum...so my dad sae nt gd if we go on holidae n leave my mum alone in spore rite...so i was like wadever...i dun care...wan to go i go...dunwan go done lorz...
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9Monday, June 13, 2005

hmm..manda u r rite...i oso wan a united grp of fwenz where fwenz stand by each other wen dey r dwn nt saying bad about each other...mayb de first dae skool reopen we sit wit mich dey all n turn by turn say out de truth to de ppl tt we been hiding our real feeling to..like ya i dun like doris..but realli i try to put up wid her..but she kept saying about mi...so if u read tis...wen skool reopen say wat u dun like abt mi ...bare all ur haterated to each other n hav a nice good start de next day so we can realli noe wat u feel n we each other can try our bez to b a betta person...but pls wen u bare it out ,bare it ALL out so de other side noe wad u feel...i think we nid tt...our fwenship reali torn-in apart...wid beliving wad u say to other ppl can't b all tt true...wen u fake ur feeling towards others..u r nt faking others but urself cause u hav to put up wid deir behaviours...pls be true wid each other....i jus wan tt frm u guyz...hw can i trust u all wen u guyz tok behind my back..hw can i believe wad u say wen i noe deep dwn tt u r hiding sumthing frm mi....think abt it u guys...pls...i dun want to end wid an argument again...i jus can aford to lose u all...wen u r de ones tt i hv left..
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9Wednesday, June 08, 2005

hmm...todae woke up late as usual...hahaz..den followed my dad to de bank...den we went to hunt fer food...hehez..den saw DURIANS!!!so my da asked mi if i wanted it...of course i say YES!!den my dad choose all tt liao...den de ppl asked him if he wanted to buy this durian it was so huge...itz much bigger den de normal durian....i took sum photos of it...b4 we open it and after we opened it...i'll post it later on...so wen to ate a few piece of it...den until i so full...den later tt dae gt tuition...so i went back to sleep...wake up...bug my sister n brother as usual...den wen to play game on de com....den sleep...den my tuition teacher came...den bla..bla...bla....borring hours is here!!..haiz...he teach dam fuckin borring...can die...den he ask mi do my own stuff while he nag at my bro...like wad de hell is my father paying him for if i'm jus der doin my own stuff...now my tummy is full of gas becos of de durianz...haiz...gtg n eat later on...hmm...wanna c de pic...c if my sis hav dld it on de com...
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9Tuesday, June 07, 2005

hmm...last saturdae went to jubilation..hmm..it was great...but sum part wasn't...like de part i have to forced myself to face him...it was hard...but i managed to pull through de nite...i guess...everytime i goin front frm behind...he goin back frm front...so i hav to walk pass him...mayb he saw my face was unhappi to meet him...yah i was because i dun wish to think abt him any mor...he dress veri well...den b4 jubilation mi n manda went to nicole hse...we make our hairs,make up all at nicole hse...nicole did my makeup...i feel like a doll sia...den wen jubilation end...i went hm...den think of him...haiz...tt y i hate to face him....i sure will think of him....think3 until cry...haiz y myz history repeat itself....we made a promise to each other to be stranger,but we acted as enemies...i rather have him b a stranger den an enemy...anyway yah i think of him as a stranger but he think of him as an enemy...wad can i do....anyway gt a job...pay was unstable...so quit...hahaz...wad de hell sia mi...i jus wish tt my life fer once can b like a fairytale...wit a happi ending...i jus wish once fer it onli....but i jus can't gt it...anywayz...ma fwenz are all drifting apart frm mi..sum sae i becum-in like a bitch,sum jus dun like mi fer no reason...but i noe hu r dey...i us dun wish to mention it...sum of dem i dun even xpect dem to sae tt...but dey did...haiz...i'm tryin my bez to make my life fer my fwen n me happi...but it jus nt gonna happen...all my goals can't be achieved...wad a failure i hate myself....my life nw nt stab;e oso...1 after 1 problem came up...in class tis year i'm quiet my cher sae....i guess i'm pulling myself away frm reality tt actually i can't run away frm...wad ever la...jus dun wish to tok abt it anymor...
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