hate me? then PISS OFF.

hmm...todae.okok nor...onli todae adam sae gt spot check for bks under table...den mi n lynn put all de bks in de locker...jus nice...open sure drop wan...hehe..den nani moody....so we give her space for while...cause wenever she bad mood, or moody she always like to b alone...den sharon go hm early...cause she sick..GET WELL SOON SHARON! we miss u...but i miss u de most...hehe..froggie....muz get well soon hor...dun b lyk mi always get myself into stupid illness because of him...i noe i won't hav him...but i won't give up...ppl change....hu noe somewhere some how things may change...but i jus hope 1 dae he will noe how deeply i felt for him and wad i gone thru after being ignore n rejected..having no ans on y things hav to end this way...y does de story end hanging....i really,despretly wan to noe wat all de reasons for all this...i jus want to feel content wit his reasons n wen he noe how much i felt for him....itz fine wit mi...eventhough u nvr make it thur....even though we stop at de entrance of de race.and back out from it.all i want is answers frm u...but i noe i'll won't have it.sae seriously...i hav no intention to fall in love wit him..i tot i jus can add on to de circles of fwenz..but dunnoe somewhere...somehow i felt tt i love him...but i wasn't sure...so i kept it to myself...till one dae i knew he had a gerl tt he dotes in his life...n tt point of time den i 'm sure how much he meant to mi..cause tt nite i can't sleep,i can't eat....i was so moody..i lock myself in de room feel tt i was decive but de person i trust....but i can't put it tt way...cause i din tell him my feelings...den daes pass i grew weaker n i can't control my fear n emotions....of loosing him...because he used to send mi loads n loads of msg lyk i was sum1 special...but after tt....nt a single msg recieve...i felt so hurt tt i jus want to go n scold him..jus to let all de anger off...but i din cause de mistake din lie on him..how is he suppose to noe my feelings...he's nt mi..den i began to hate myself..i hate myself so much tt i almost wan to kill myself...though i noe tt my killing myself...i din solve de problem...i craete another problem...so now my heart has a big empty space...waitin to be filled...i noe part of it is filled by MICHELLE,JIE LUN & AMOS FOUR.dey r de ones tt keep mi goin...n ms ng...though she hadr on us...but she gave many gd advices tt make mi realise tt..no matter how much i suffer...he he dun want to care...he will remain nt to care....so i jus hav to bring myself up n face de challange tt heaven has decide..

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The night has thousand eyes,
and the day but one,
yet the light of the whole world dies,
with the dying sun.
the mind has thousand eyes,
and the Heart but one,
yet the light of the whole world dies,
when the love is done.

Watch as this tear falls into empty space
See it fall into life's nameless place
Can you see the sparkle as it catches the light
That sparkle once was happiness that is no longer in sight
As it falls watch it, its color has changed
From blue to bright red, it has a wide range

There it goes all alone, it continues to fall
With it, it takes the emotion, the emotion of all
Wait, can you hear it? A sob has broke free
Has shook the lungs cold, but yet it continues to be
Here it comes, a force has been built between the eye
A wall of shear water, it's now time to cry

A shoulder, a scream, darkness envelops your soul
The darkness of the night has taken its toll
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Monday night I feel so low
Count the hours they go so slow
I know the sound of your voice
Can save my soul
City lights, streets of gold
Look out my window to the world below
Moves so fast and it feels so cold
And I'm all alone
Don't let me die
I'm losing my mind
Baby just give me a sign
And now that you're gone
I just wanna be with you
And I can't go on
I wanna be with you
Wanna be with you
I can't sleep and I'm up all night
Through these tears I try to smile
I lnow the touch of your hand
Can save my life
Don't let me down
Come to me now
I got to be with you somehow

And now that you're gone
Who am I without you now
I can't go on
I just wanna be with you
hav u ever think of how i feel...?i keep on pondering dis question in my mind

We're told through times of trouble..
"You MUST Go On!"
But Why?

What's to come, What is it?
All we're told is "It'll Get Better!"
But "Better" never seems to come.
If it arrives, It's not for long...
Happiness is Forever longed...
Sadness & Pain are encountered more often

But once we question, we're told ..."
You MUST Go On!"

Watching Loved Ones in Pain...
"We MUST Go On"

Feeling Sad and Lonely...
"We Must Go On"

Where is it we MUST Go on to?
Will we Ever find this "Better" place?
Some allow their Thoughts and Emotions
to be devoured into another place.
Some will Share Emotions.
Some will Lose "ALL" Emotions..

MUST Go ON....................Why?
MUST GO ON...................Where?
Must Go ON............................

SOMETIMES I DON'T WANT TO!!

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