9Sunday, March 06, 2005

todae...manda ask mi out...but i sae i dun wan...den at hw...i kept askin y....y is dis happening to mi....y is my life so horrible....i kept askin y...but i couldn't find de ans to it...i find it so frustrating...deni went for a jog to lessen my weight...i getting fatter....tot of running at public places...den rain...so i went to de gym....n run...at de machine thing....den after de jog...sain2 lor...nt much happening to mi....tis daez...xcept...my life is full of sadness...full of dwn...sure somewhere sometimez...my dae will be bad...can heaven tek a rest punishing mi....life to mi ment nothing....i realli dunwanna west my tears...but no matter how hard i told myself nt to cry for him....de tears jus kept falling out of my eyes....he wouldn't noe howmuch he has hurt mi insides....but i'll try to be strong in skool...n nt let my fwenz worrie abt mi...cause dey hav their on worries n trouble too...i dun wanna burden dem...jus let mi suffer in a little room alone....i noe i ment nth to him...as long as he is happi wit his life....i'm happi for him...thanks lionel n nikki...for lighten up my daez wen i feel like dying....manda,nani,michelle n jie lun...u hav help mi overcome all de obstcle of my life...i am really glad i found a freind hu i can depend on...wen i feel like killing myself...u r de wan hu stood by mi...no matter nite or dae....happi or sad...u all understand mi de most...sori if i ever scold u all or curse u all wen i'm angry...but noe tis deep inside...u r my true love(as a fwen)....to him....u shld noe hu u r...hope u will find de right gerl....or de gerl u dream of....cause de gerl u dream of was never mi.... :) i'm happi u all r by my side...u all roxz my world..
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