hate me? then PISS OFF.

hmm...todae in school veri sainz....after sch go hm wit mandy n nani n lynn...but we go wm first eat lunch....den we see see stuff...den dunnoe lynn go where...so we hack care...den go eat lor....den all de unfinish chicken,chili,fish n watermelon juice....we pour dem into 1 cum n make until disgusting lyk tt den we go off....den on de way hm...nani sms mi...she sae he onli...den i lyk wadever...den nani send again...haiz de nick....den i sae y? wad he sae...den she dun wan to tell scared i sad....but de truth is i'm already sad...so itz nth wrg to add de sadness...cause now sadness is like part and parcel of moi life....i'm no longer de lively,cheerful nadiah hu is crazy all de time....now...i'm de quiet2 type..hu seldom talk much lyk b4...hu alway think of de past over n over again...i tell ppl nt to bottle up their feelings...but mi myself bottle up moi feelings....my days hav no light,my night hav no peace.i've been ttrouble with lots of things...eveywhere i go he always der.though itz not de real him...but his presence are always wit mi...i will try moi bez to forget him....i hope some day i will...ppl sae life is full of colours,i realli hope i will find de path to that colourful life soon...i will still love u...eventhough u dun like mi...i will cling on to u,wit every strength i've got...i will promise u that...

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haiz...todae...hmm wad happen...mr tan scold us cause we go tek bk in de locker w/o permision n cum class late...den he start teaching..alot ppl nvr do de hwkz...den he angry lor...den after sch go hm straight...wait manda,mandy n nani...den on de way hm sad2 lor...my closest fwen will noe y la hor...i dun wish to mantion it....reach hm de tuition cher cum liao...den he scold2...den i yayayaya...den i shout at him ya la..u here to teach mi or nag at mi...n gt paid by my father...my father nvr pay u to nag hor...den he start teaching...den he ask y late...den i ask y early...i tot last tuition u sae u cuming at 5...den he sae he gt sumthing on...den i sae...den u dare scold mi for no reason..u de 1 cum earli w/o telling mi..den wan to blame it on mi...den i sae to him idiot...haha...den actually de tuition 1 1/2 hr...den he cum at2 ...den i reach hm 3.30...denhe nag2 infront of my father act wan to b innocent...den my father start counting de duration onli when he started teachin n tt is at4.45...so he cum earli oso no use..but actually he pack his things wan to go off at 3.30.den my father sae my daughter gt a point...she pointed out to u...now u wan to waste my money...u sit here n teach...den i luff...den de tuition cher paiseh liao...den my father oso luff infront o him make him paiseh...both father n daughter gt same character..haha..de tuition cher kena bully...

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haiz...so stress out wit moi life...n my fwenz....y can't our live be any better...lun sori for ur lost....ppl come n go....u jus hav to accept it....u may think tt haven is nt on ur side but...remember this: everything happen for a reason...think positive about it...if u can't...jus tell ur self tt ur *** is on vacation tt y u dun c her...hope u will cher up...n dun be down...if u need a shoulder to cry on..i'm here fer u...u gt mic,nani,mandy,manda all of us...will stand by ur side...dun lose hope...kz...moi life...nth gd has happen onli i had stupid lame dreams n ket crying all nite fer him...ijus wan to give up on him...but my brain told mi too give up cause der will never be space fer mi in his heart...but moi heart sae der is still hope if u hold on n be patien...ur dae will cum...so i'm confuse...wadever it is....time will tell so i jus wait on this empty street...

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todae...manda ask mi out...but i sae i dun wan...den at hw...i kept askin y....y is dis happening to mi....y is my life so horrible....i kept askin y...but i couldn't find de ans to it...i find it so frustrating...deni went for a jog to lessen my weight...i getting fatter....tot of running at public places...den rain...so i went to de gym....n run...at de machine thing....den after de jog...sain2 lor...nt much happening to mi....tis daez...xcept...my life is full of sadness...full of dwn...sure somewhere sometimez...my dae will be bad...can heaven tek a rest punishing mi....life to mi ment nothing....i realli dunwanna west my tears...but no matter how hard i told myself nt to cry for him....de tears jus kept falling out of my eyes....he wouldn't noe howmuch he has hurt mi insides....but i'll try to be strong in skool...n nt let my fwenz worrie abt mi...cause dey hav their on worries n trouble too...i dun wanna burden dem...jus let mi suffer in a little room alone....i noe i ment nth to him...as long as he is happi wit his life....i'm happi for him...thanks lionel n nikki...for lighten up my daez wen i feel like dying....manda,nani,michelle n jie lun...u hav help mi overcome all de obstcle of my life...i am really glad i found a freind hu i can depend on...wen i feel like killing myself...u r de wan hu stood by mi...no matter nite or dae....happi or sad...u all understand mi de most...sori if i ever scold u all or curse u all wen i'm angry...but noe tis deep inside...u r my true love(as a fwen)....to him....u shld noe hu u r...hope u will find de right gerl....or de gerl u dream of....cause de gerl u dream of was never mi.... :) i'm happi u all r by my side...u all roxz my world..

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