hate me? then PISS OFF.

manda n nani wanted to celebrate my bdae party in school...ok lah fine...den all dis gerlz came up to de table...became fwenz jus to eat de cake...ok i wasn't mad....but those i expected to cum din turned up...n those hu i din expect to cum turn up...all i need for a party is jus my bez fwen...tt enuf for mi ....i dun nid alot...but if dey wan ...ya by all means...den de XXX i expected to cum....din cum...ok lah din cum cause gt reason mah....den b4 de thing start can't at least wish mi happi bdae...tt will keep mi smiling for de whole yr to my slef....but it din happen...i noe sumthing wrg will happen on tis dae...but i realli din expect to be tis bad....den on de way hm...i jus couldn't stand it n cry lor....wen XXX was doing sumthin....he din even turn n look at mi...as if he was too bz...den it made mi think of de tym...wen i walkin hm....den XXXX sae sumting tt touched my heart....but den now he no longer sae anythng tt touched my heart....but i dunnoe y i love him wit all moi heart....he can't even smile at mi now...as if der's a rock on his lip....am i a burden to tis world....y my life sux....can it b slightly better....nani has wad she wanted...but mi....still waiting...by de edge of de roof top...dunnoe wen will i fall...n realised tt he wasn't goin to be mine...n stop fantasing abt him...When i look into his eyes theres nothing there to see...nothing but my own mistakes staring back at me....i realli regreated knowing tt i love him wenh had a gerl alreadi ...now i jus sit der n wait...wishin...wondering...hoping tt i'll will b next....y muz i realise tt i love him until he's gone...(Never hold back from telling someone how u feel, cause when u finally decide to tell them..it might be too late.)pls do realise tt this is true cause it happen to mi....den u will feel when love is missing from ur life, it feels like u have nothing...the absence of one person can completely alter ur entire life...taking with it everything u ever loved and everyone that u thought ever loved u.

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