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been quitea while since i've last blog...errm...life seems rather down lately...been daydreaming in class....din pay attention....i think de past nadiah is cuming back liao...dunnoe lah...but life seems rather dull to mi...i live a life with no loved...been like living in de hell dis daez...tis week i onli came to school for 2 daez...cause i have a bad cold...think becouse of de weather....life witout him....means no life...i been quite moody tis daez...dunnoe y....kept loosing my temper for nth...cried lots dis daez...last fridae...i was staring at de blank wall n i luff to myself...ya preety dum huh...den ms wong saw...den she c de wall n den c at mi...den c de wall n at mi back...den she asked mi wad am i luffing at...den i was...ah...orh..nth....but i actually reflecting on de past wen life is worth a living...wen every minute of my life is like a gold...itz so special tt i wouldn't let any1 interfear...now...let life tek de course...let it drift away...let my soul hunt my body....like nothing is worth a living anymor...not even mi...i dun get it...y am i here jus to tourtue myself n otherz...i really dun get it...can someone/something or watever pls enlighten mi...

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manda n nani wanted to celebrate my bdae party in school...ok lah fine...den all dis gerlz came up to de table...became fwenz jus to eat de cake...ok i wasn't mad....but those i expected to cum din turned up...n those hu i din expect to cum turn up...all i need for a party is jus my bez fwen...tt enuf for mi ....i dun nid alot...but if dey wan ...ya by all means...den de XXX i expected to cum....din cum...ok lah din cum cause gt reason mah....den b4 de thing start can't at least wish mi happi bdae...tt will keep mi smiling for de whole yr to my slef....but it din happen...i noe sumthing wrg will happen on tis dae...but i realli din expect to be tis bad....den on de way hm...i jus couldn't stand it n cry lor....wen XXX was doing sumthin....he din even turn n look at mi...as if he was too bz...den it made mi think of de tym...wen i walkin hm....den XXXX sae sumting tt touched my heart....but den now he no longer sae anythng tt touched my heart....but i dunnoe y i love him wit all moi heart....he can't even smile at mi now...as if der's a rock on his lip....am i a burden to tis world....y my life sux....can it b slightly better....nani has wad she wanted...but mi....still waiting...by de edge of de roof top...dunnoe wen will i fall...n realised tt he wasn't goin to be mine...n stop fantasing abt him...When i look into his eyes theres nothing there to see...nothing but my own mistakes staring back at me....i realli regreated knowing tt i love him wenh had a gerl alreadi ...now i jus sit der n wait...wishin...wondering...hoping tt i'll will b next....y muz i realise tt i love him until he's gone...(Never hold back from telling someone how u feel, cause when u finally decide to tell them..it might be too late.)pls do realise tt this is true cause it happen to mi....den u will feel when love is missing from ur life, it feels like u have nothing...the absence of one person can completely alter ur entire life...taking with it everything u ever loved and everyone that u thought ever loved u.

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yahOOOO!!!so happiii.....todae i went to singapore poly with michelle ....we go der jus to c taufik....he so handsome tall...although he look quite nerd before he became singapore idol....hehe....ha look at mi twice...wen i shouted his name...summor wave...really worth waking up early jus to c him....wen i tek his picture n shouting out his name i almost cry...but i try nt to...he is realli handsome...den after we c taufik we went to de mrt n go to lot1...on de way der...in de mrt i kept smiling...cause i can't forget his face looking at mi wen i shouted his name....Amanda hear this,"sly sux.....TAUFIK RAWKZ......!!!!"hahaah..i managed to get ard de 4th row..cause we came early..heheh...i pushed very1 jus to get the best view of him...heheh...den ppl push michelle...den we goin off i purposely step their leg...as if i walking on de normal floor....hahah...do my bez fwen rite...kekeke...i so happi....i slept jus now...oso i can dream of him...den i slap myself,...cause dream all de craps....den go back sleep....manda i can't seem to go in de blog dat is for mi, u n nani wan...why ahz...

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