9Tuesday, August 24, 2004
todae morinig wake up ...den got msg form amanda sayin tat she is not cuming skool...cause she is sick...todae i came to skool quite ealy...den fathiyah ask mi to follow her to de near by shop as she need to buy bread for de p.a.c.thing...den i follow lorz....den reach skool jus in time...ok lorz...den sain lorz....no mood to tok ...den tt doris tek book frm michelle like dunnoe how to tek like tt....until kena mi...den i show 1 kinda face den she sori2...realli sori...not michelle fault...duh...as if i can't see for myself de...den tek history test...can be bothered...i write anyhow witout even reading the question...den i straight away go to sleep...den i vadelise de table...den khairul help mi erease...hahaz...cause i vandelise his table...den...dunnoe y lahz..now i feel like nearer to de 2e4 boyz den de 2e4 galz...dunnoe for wat reason...sunddenli i can communicate more wit the guyz den de galz...argh watever can be bothered...den after skool...i went to see ms ng...den she tok tok lorz...haiz...dunnoe lahz...apart of mi sae this...den another part of it sae different thing...den she ask mi to reflect lahz...den ms wong oso advise lahz...den i gt cry lahz...den i wait 1 conner until my face look as if i not cry like tt den go cafe....den dun find nani...den sae her at de foyer...den we go tek alot of badges...den nvr pay..hheehe..kekek...den go to canteen haiz saw him lahz...it so painful...for de first time i feel so shatterd...the scene brought a sore in my eyes...till now...and at de same time i felt as if my heart was broken into pieces.....den actually i wanted to go to jp....den ask nani follow...den happi...den saw tt...i feel so sad...den i was like no mood...den all de way i din tok to nani...not din tok lahz...nvr tok much...denon de way n until now ....my head n heart was like still in pain...my head can't tek it...my heart can't understand it...but i noe hu am i to not allow him to do tt...ii'm jus a friend to him....or mayb not...so i decided to give up on him,eventhough i noe itz hard...io noe i'm alwayz slow...wen ppl sae he had feeling for mi...i din react...but wen he dun den i react....i realli regret it...heaven is realli not on my side...1 after 1 problemz cum up to mi...
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