9Tuesday, August 31, 2004
haiz..todae in skool was a total act....cause deep inside i'm hurt badly...tears rolled doe my eyes each dae...jus thinking of him....den i heard a song on de radio...it was de song he send mi last time...and wen dey played tt song...i jus can't stand it and break down...while dey played tt song i reflect back on de past...haiz...back den ...der was so much fun....living on earth has a meaning...but now...jus smiply sad,depress andworthless living on dis earth....went to school....sain2...den meet manda nani at de interchange b4 goin to school...and michelle n jie lun at u.t. mrt as normal...came school early...concert time he sat behind my class der... i think to get close wit her...hiaz...who am i to stop rite...nvm lah watever he wan to do ...let him do....jus try my bez to accept it...n be happy for him...and respect his descion...now i'm terying to let go of him...but itz hard....and der's a saying letting go of someone dear is hard,but holding on to someone who dosen't feel de same is much harder...but i'll try my bez..jie lun we up stage to peform...a shout for her...but she din hear...itz jus exactly like i shouted for him wit all my heart..but he couldn't hear...shima oso went up stage to sing de song everytime...tt song too he send mi...haiz...den wen to wm...wach movie...walk ard...den went to de arcade....saw him...tot dun wan to go in ....but since doris wan..ok lah...give in....mi n manda hav to mood to shop ...so dey go in de shop ..we waited outside....lorz...den go hm after tt...saw de corspe of de dead weomen..hu died at de bb mrt...
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