hate me? then PISS OFF.

Todae…dunnoe watz gone into mi…wake up…feel not right….den I was piss of by my brother for being so irritating early in de morning…den walk off de house feel nt right…feel tat something is strange..den on de way to school I on my hp…den I relies tt manda msg mi…my other fwenz msg mi…my campus fwenz msg mi…sori not to reply de msg in time…den todae sain2 go school….actually tat happened to mi almost everidae now..i dun really understand de used of goin to scholl wen all u have to do everydae is watch tat painful scene infront of u…n not do anything about it…cause I hav no rights to do it…den I reach school early….wen walking saw chang n chien wen sitting together…such a loving couple…envy dem a lot…saw nani n manda cuming frm the bookshop…den dey was surprised to see mi cuming skool early…den dey told mi tat doris ,jie lun n michelle kept a book n say thing wat dey feel to each other in de book….i really dun care much…errmmm no mayb tt was wat I told myself to do….not to care ….den first period gt science practical test…went out ok….quite eZ….den I play around with the voltmeter ,ammeter, wire n battery…den make all my fwenz luff….quite lame lahz…but so borring so make lame jokes n luff at it lahz…den went to class…hav to donate dunnoe for wat…so jus donate…den go to music rm as usual mi ,Amanda n nani are always late for class…den ken abit scolding lahz….den recess….recess readi sain…dunnoe lahz now adae mi…can’t even understand myself…den wan to assemble after recess I go scold 1 sec 1 boy…for nothing jus realizing stress…deni walk nt happi not happi like tt lahz…den go back class dun feel like studying…den jus copy whatever cher sae muz copy lahz…den khairul change sit wit qiong …so qiong sit beside mi…even if qiong sit beside mi I hav o mood to tok….den I stare at de rain outside de class….daydreaming…den malay liao..my nap…I slept through while doing de listening compre….den kena scolding abit by the cher…but too sain n sad all tt lahz…den dun care lahz…denafter mt.gt eng…I was so sad n too sain too make de class chaos….den zul ask y so quite…den irwan all started asking…but I jus sae nth…dun wanna trouble dem wit my burden…den I can’t stand it….by literature period I break down n cry…den I took nani pen knives n cut my hand…den got sum scars….haiz…dunnoe lahz….wat do u do wen the onli person hu can stop u from crying is de person hu make u cry…wat do u do wen u want someone to be wit u…but tt someone dun wanna be wit u…wat do u do wen someone u care for doesn’t care for u at all…wat do u do wen all tt u wan is happinese but all u get is troublez n worries…wat do u do wen u wan otherz to be happy but wen dey are happy u r not happy…wat do u do wen all u wan is a fwen but all u get is enemies

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