9Saturday, August 14, 2004
...yesterdae???i dunnoe watz gone wrong wit mi...i saw him...he move on...left onli mi...i can't seem to move on with my life...i can't stop myself to think of him...no matter how occupied iam...there he will be...on my mind...haz...even wen i did my mathz common test...i wish him luck in his test inside my heart...hope...he pass his test...i dun mine if he dun wish me good luck or wat...i jus wan him...to get the bez ...i feel so down this few daez...i feel tat i'm not last time...cause since i noe him...my life change...n i tresure his fwenship...eventhough i dun recieve the same treatmeant as i did before...i dunnnoe y he suddenli change...i dunnoe wat he think of me anymor....i dun recieve so many msg from him anymore...i dunnoe y...my life dun seem colourful as it used to be...wen he treat me as his fwen...ah..i dunnoe lahz...i dunnoe even if wat is de cause of our fwenship to becum like this...itsit me...or ???i dunnoe...my heart can seem to forget those things u did to me...n de time we had together...i jus noe...i miss u...i realli like u to be here wit mi....every moment....every second...every min of my life...i dun seem to care about my studies anymor...cause i miss u too much...i can't help thinking of u....i noe itz so crap....cause ppl never miss u ...u miss him for wat...but...i tried leeting go...but i can't....i hav a feeling tt he dun caare about me anymore....nvm...tt is his wish...i can't control him...jus like i can't control my feelings for him...to me ...Letting go of someone dear is hard...but letting go of someone hu dosent fell de same is much harder...
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