hate me? then PISS OFF.

haiz..todae in skool was a total act....cause deep inside i'm hurt badly...tears rolled doe my eyes each dae...jus thinking of him....den i heard a song on de radio...it was de song he send mi last time...and wen dey played tt song...i jus can't stand it and break down...while dey played tt song i reflect back on de past...haiz...back den ...der was so much fun....living on earth has a meaning...but now...jus smiply sad,depress andworthless living on dis earth....went to school....sain2...den meet manda nani at de interchange b4 goin to school...and michelle n jie lun at u.t. mrt as normal...came school early...concert time he sat behind my class der... i think to get close wit her...hiaz...who am i to stop rite...nvm lah watever he wan to do ...let him do....jus try my bez to accept it...n be happy for him...and respect his descion...now i'm terying to let go of him...but itz hard....and der's a saying letting go of someone dear is hard,but holding on to someone who dosen't feel de same is much harder...but i'll try my bez..jie lun we up stage to peform...a shout for her...but she din hear...itz jus exactly like i shouted for him wit all my heart..but he couldn't hear...shima oso went up stage to sing de song everytime...tt song too he send mi...haiz...den wen to wm...wach movie...walk ard...den went to de arcade....saw him...tot dun wan to go in ....but since doris wan..ok lah...give in....mi n manda hav to mood to shop ...so dey go in de shop ..we waited outside....lorz...den go hm after tt...saw de corspe of de dead weomen..hu died at de bb mrt...

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haiz...dunnoe lahz....jus simply to round things up...my dae todae is jus plain blur...i came to skool in de morning...den came late lah...as usual....tml mettin all ma bez buddiez...hope nt to make dem late....hahhaz...errm...came to skool late den go walk behind de mahz...at de bb court der...den dunnoe how collided wit michelle....den mi n jl...n michelle laugh so loud sia....den go first period com lab..tek dunnnoe wat survey de skool prepare for us...150 qs leh... recess time liao ...gt recess detention...cause cum late mah...den mr adam sae we cum late...for recess detention...so muz go detention after skool until 3.10...haiz...den dunnoe lah...sad2...but dunwan to let it out...cause now okok liao mahz...wit michelle all..dunwan to burden dem..lah...like i live here to burden ppl onli...den after detention...go hm...change go out...shop for shirt cause manda sak mi wear pink...den buy shoe lace all...haahh..dunnoe lah...so ugly wan tml...relli nt lookin forward to it...and tml will b another act to put up for my fwenz...so tt i won;t burden dem...

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yesterdae...type alot sia....den in de middle computer hang...fuck sia....summore gt wish zax bdae leh....nvm....tade wish him balated birthdae...k......HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAE ZAX WANG REN FU!!!!!EVENTHOUGH U WILL NEVER NOE I WRITE TIS ....BUT STILL I WRITE LAH HOR...MAY ALL YOR WISH COME TRUE....N MAY GOD TAKE REVENCH FOR U TO DE U WEEKLY REPORTER ....WHO HAV BEEN CRITISING U....ok....errm...k todae veli funni lahz...hor....i wake up..den havent bathe ..den my cousin cum to my house while i was sleeping...so i hav no comb in my room cause yesterdae i play wit my another cousin hair n put in in de computer room...so i was like...wat de fuck....den i go tek tis telekung(white cloth) frm de cupboard...deni put it over my head...den my cousin tot i was a ghost...cause tt thing is v.long...den its plain white...den my cousin was like eeee....hantu2(ghost)!!den i was so blur....cause i jus wake up in de morning ...so i went up to him..den he tot i ghost mah...den he run frm 1 conner of my house to the other...so i lazy to chase him...i jus go to de toilet n was my face....den com my hair all tt lahz...den he sae jus now i saw hantu(ghost)the height like u...de hair oso like u...but wearing white cloth around it...den i sae mi lah...i jus wake up mahz....den he dun believe mi...den he sae go away hantu...den he read de quran verse....den i started luffin like hell...den he ...go read quran verse at de water and ask mi to drink den i drink...den he noe tt i m mi..hahah...veri lame sia...now scolding mi...cause i wrting tis in de internet...hahahah....cause later goin shopping wit my dad...den go dunnoe where lah..den for sure go hm late 1..now tt my com is ok...i'm gonne play gamez....bb

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firstly wanna sae HAPPY BIRTHDAE MANDY !!!!AND MAY ALL YOUR DREAMZ COME TRUE...den secondly...sorri hor yesterdae nvr blog...haiz com siao2 lahz...wan to get in this web page tek mi 30min lehz...haiz...stupid com....haiz todae okok lahz....onli tt most of my life is ok all of a sudden...firstlymichelle tok to mi early in de morning ask to wait for jl together....den watever lorz....den jl tok to mi in de mrt....den jus reply2 lyk tt lorz...den den doris oso tok to mi...but wen first2 dey ok wit mi...i like feel uneasy n feel sumthing amis....but after awhile okok lorz...den durring p.e we skip...den tt ass holedarren tan call mi n manda write pink form...den veri lame lorz...write pink form...den write lorz...den tell him..he dun wanna belive...dn i n manda go sae lah...we tell u readi mahz...u dunwan to belive wat can we do....beg him to believe???-.-' den he sae we all give him lotz of crap..pls lorz..where gt give him lot of crap..i nvr p.e gt letter hor...wat crap u tokin ..u nt happi sae lahz....wan to act...den act as if u so big like tt infront of de upper sec...u wan to show ppl yr anger i oso can show lahz....idiot fucker...den go back to ah go class...create havoc lahz...as usual...den sci...tt ah chua cum late...gd lah...sci so littel time ...i so happi lahz.....den recess time dunnoe y nani cry...den after recess she quite okok lahz...den gt mt....den wait for her i owayz sit outside 2e3 class rm...den i go sae hi to tt zhang li xia...den she cum to mi sae i dun wan to tok to u...den de tone so funni...den i luff...den she walk off hahahtt fucking yahida cum late...bt gd lahz....i happi....den she veri kaupeh 1 lorz...i sleep oso scold...i tok oso scold....de way i react oso scold...wah tt fucker...goin to get frm mi1 dae...she dunnoe anything dun sae...lahz....dun proof to mi u r stupid...cause i realli think u r stupid...but u dun hav to proof it to mi,...den pc...okok lahz....den suddenli nani veli happi de...den she n michelle play2 together while i n mandy sit der watch de nice senery...tt we longed for yearzden gt this upper sec cum disturb ms ng...den she complaint to adam...den adam cum to our class wit de cane n let us go first b4 he cane de guy...den de adam ask we all to tek out our bkz under our desk...lucky...i gt locker...den go dum all in lah...like pig sty like tt sia my locker...hahaz...den wan to xcape cafe...den raj cought nani...den nani sae wan to do art...den tt fuck morontic idiot asshole....go n tek de sketch bk...which is nt nani's...is mandy's....nani jus holding for her...den i ,nani n manda go find tt fucker cannot find...denwe go hall act...for mr patrick tan....dunnoe wat i.t. stuff lahz...den sue-e act as ms ng....mi,nani,manda n mandy b de naughty student...den havoc lahz...jus noe in de hall veli crap...lahz...den tok abt underwear..den can critise other cher in front of cher....gd hor...den go cafe lahz...back cannot find tt morontic raj mahz...den saw her cum frm de skool main gate...i think jus fuck..hahahah....wat de crap...ok lahz....den she went up to de cafe...den i go tell her abt de sketch bk...den she kao bei...kao bu...like tt...fucker sia...den she go shout in de cafe,...wat....???deni sae lah,...sketch bk lah....den she sae cum tek lah...den i go out of de cafe....go open de door den until de sound goin to break....den she sae u wan to spoil de skool property isit...???den go scold mi sae i gt call u go out mehz....den she veri wat lorz....but dun care...we go cpoe alot of money frm her...haha...as in ...we sneak eat de food she pay.....hahah...den at de foyer gt sell badge lorz...den we veri kao bei wan lahz...we go tek tek ...den sae yah...pay readi2...haha....den i n nani.... chinese nick is nin na bu n nin na bei....respectively....den manda n mandy chinese nick is...mai kao bu...n mai kao bei..respectively...hahah...den mine n nani english nick....idiot,moron...respectively..mandy n manda english nick is fucker n sucker respectively lorz...i noe veli lame....den i n manda go j.p.....we go buy stuff den go tek neo print...den go hm...tek cab...physco lor we all...she tek 1 cab i tek another cab...den actually go de same route...hahaz...

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Could I ever Love You more?
A question drawn in mind;
a simple question, hard to answer,
one only answered by time......

For within the heart, within the soul,
the powers of time is lent;
to choose each word so carefully,
this needed times well spent......

The only written conclusion,
that hereby comes to mind;
is that I could never Love You more,
given eternity to define the time......

For You are the gathering of my soul,
the truth within the efforts of my life;
to try defining the depths of Love,
if reality would be such a sacrifice......

I must say my Dearest though,
such is this sacrifice of mine;
For I want You to always know,
I'll Love You Beyond All Time......

As I look out at the sky and sea,
I know you and I are meant to be...
I only wish I could make you see,
How very much your love means to me...

I wish I could just walk up to you,
And speak the words that lovers do...
But for now,I sit here sad and blue,
Wishing that I could be with you...

Todae…dunnoe watz gone into mi…wake up…feel not right….den I was piss of by my brother for being so irritating early in de morning…den walk off de house feel nt right…feel tat something is strange..den on de way to school I on my hp…den I relies tt manda msg mi…my other fwenz msg mi…my campus fwenz msg mi…sori not to reply de msg in time…den todae sain2 go school….actually tat happened to mi almost everidae now..i dun really understand de used of goin to scholl wen all u have to do everydae is watch tat painful scene infront of u…n not do anything about it…cause I hav no rights to do it…den I reach school early….wen walking saw chang n chien wen sitting together…such a loving couple…envy dem a lot…saw nani n manda cuming frm the bookshop…den dey was surprised to see mi cuming skool early…den dey told mi tat doris ,jie lun n michelle kept a book n say thing wat dey feel to each other in de book….i really dun care much…errmmm no mayb tt was wat I told myself to do….not to care ….den first period gt science practical test…went out ok….quite eZ….den I play around with the voltmeter ,ammeter, wire n battery…den make all my fwenz luff….quite lame lahz…but so borring so make lame jokes n luff at it lahz…den went to class…hav to donate dunnoe for wat…so jus donate…den go to music rm as usual mi ,Amanda n nani are always late for class…den ken abit scolding lahz….den recess….recess readi sain…dunnoe lahz now adae mi…can’t even understand myself…den wan to assemble after recess I go scold 1 sec 1 boy…for nothing jus realizing stress…deni walk nt happi not happi like tt lahz…den go back class dun feel like studying…den jus copy whatever cher sae muz copy lahz…den khairul change sit wit qiong …so qiong sit beside mi…even if qiong sit beside mi I hav o mood to tok….den I stare at de rain outside de class….daydreaming…den malay liao..my nap…I slept through while doing de listening compre….den kena scolding abit by the cher…but too sain n sad all tt lahz…den dun care lahz…denafter mt.gt eng…I was so sad n too sain too make de class chaos….den zul ask y so quite…den irwan all started asking…but I jus sae nth…dun wanna trouble dem wit my burden…den I can’t stand it….by literature period I break down n cry…den I took nani pen knives n cut my hand…den got sum scars….haiz…dunnoe lahz….wat do u do wen the onli person hu can stop u from crying is de person hu make u cry…wat do u do wen u want someone to be wit u…but tt someone dun wanna be wit u…wat do u do wen someone u care for doesn’t care for u at all…wat do u do wen all tt u wan is happinese but all u get is troublez n worries…wat do u do wen u wan otherz to be happy but wen dey are happy u r not happy…wat do u do wen all u wan is a fwen but all u get is enemies

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todae morinig wake up ...den got msg form amanda sayin tat she is not cuming skool...cause she is sick...todae i came to skool quite ealy...den fathiyah ask mi to follow her to de near by shop as she need to buy bread for de p.a.c.thing...den i follow lorz....den reach skool jus in time...ok lorz...den sain lorz....no mood to tok ...den tt doris tek book frm michelle like dunnoe how to tek like tt....until kena mi...den i show 1 kinda face den she sori2...realli sori...not michelle fault...duh...as if i can't see for myself de...den tek history test...can be bothered...i write anyhow witout even reading the question...den i straight away go to sleep...den i vadelise de table...den khairul help mi erease...hahaz...cause i vandelise his table...den...dunnoe y lahz..now i feel like nearer to de 2e4 boyz den de 2e4 galz...dunnoe for wat reason...sunddenli i can communicate more wit the guyz den de galz...argh watever can be bothered...den after skool...i went to see ms ng...den she tok tok lorz...haiz...dunnoe lahz...apart of mi sae this...den another part of it sae different thing...den she ask mi to reflect lahz...den ms wong oso advise lahz...den i gt cry lahz...den i wait 1 conner until my face look as if i not cry like tt den go cafe....den dun find nani...den sae her at de foyer...den we go tek alot of badges...den nvr pay..hheehe..kekek...den go to canteen haiz saw him lahz...it so painful...for de first time i feel so shatterd...the scene brought a sore in my eyes...till now...and at de same time i felt as if my heart was broken into pieces.....den actually i wanted to go to jp....den ask nani follow...den happi...den saw tt...i feel so sad...den i was like no mood...den all de way i din tok to nani...not din tok lahz...nvr tok much...denon de way n until now ....my head n heart was like still in pain...my head can't tek it...my heart can't understand it...but i noe hu am i to not allow him to do tt...ii'm jus a friend to him....or mayb not...so i decided to give up on him,eventhough i noe itz hard...io noe i'm alwayz slow...wen ppl sae he had feeling for mi...i din react...but wen he dun den i react....i realli regret it...heaven is realli not on my side...1 after 1 problemz cum up to mi...

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to be frank wit u guyzz..i hate being in skool this daez...i find it useless to be goin to skool every morning and waking up so early..when ders nobody hu carez..teacher care?? ok mayb some...but fwenz care ???hu wanna care....u been backstabb or wat...dey dun even care ...and sometimes even your bez fwen din noe tt u hav been backstabb ...cause dey are too busy wit their own lifez..tt dey dun even care..tell u wen yr fwenz cum to u...itz wen dey need yr help reali bad and tt their own fwen can't or dun bother to help dem...tt is wen dey cum to uoy..or wen their fwenz din cum skool den dey will go to u n sae can i eat wit u todae...now i can't be bothered wit all this stuff anymore...dey wan to hack care mi...hack care lah....dey wan to tok abt mi tok lah...dey wan to make up storiz abt mi...den go ahead...i hav no rightz to stop u...u wan to make otherz think i'm bad...den go....anyway my life is corrupting...so if u wan to put mi up wit all this mess...u are welcomed to...if u wanna noe....i dun think any1 carez for mi...c for yourself...my fwen 1 by 1 go away...for dunnoe watz reason...and start toking behind my back as if i dunnoe...den wen wit mi act innocent...fuck off lahz....den my cher hu carez...onli ms ng n ms wong...de rest can go die lah...my family .... dun hav to sae lahz

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todae veri borring..dunnoe wat to do....mornig2 wake up cause tot my tuition in de morning but in de end afternoon...den i relised i forgot to bring home my maths text book home for my tuition later todae...so i called up nani..to borrow hers...den she send to mi at aroum 3+...den by den i jus wake up from my sleep...den i jus comb my hair n head to u.t mrt station...den i was so dam blur...tt i din relised i was wearing shorts...until i went out of the lift...mind u i gt bathe hor....but tt 1 early in de morning ard 10+ den my tuition cher cum afternoon den i go back sleep lorz...hehez....i noe like pig but wat to do....den go online for awhile den offline...den sleep den now online back...den ard afternoon i gt watch de horror thiland movie...de sister...it was base on de true stori...den gal was killen n de boy was hid under de bed..n de head in de air-con filter ...den wanna noe mor...go c for yrself lahz...hahah...buoiz...gtg n sleep again..hahhaz

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todae...haiz...dunnoe lah...wat happen to nani...i guess tml is her bdae den i think she reflect abt de past...like last year we all de bez fwen celebrate her bdae together...but now shot of bez fwen cause michelle n jie lun not der...jie lun i think she understand lahz...jie lun gt bb training..she can't excape cause she de captain...and anyway nani noe how much basketball mean to jie lun...now i think de concer in nani head n heart is...y michelle change n backstabb us...y she dun hav any reaction towards nani bdae....we even tell de trainers tt cum to our class tat tomolo is nani bdae...den dey wish nani..den we sing bade song ...den i lokk at michelle...she like no reaction...den actually nani cry before de enrichment....den we make some lame joke n make de class roudy...purposely to make nani mind out of it..but as soon as de class finished...she went hm n change...den we meet at bb interchange....den nani started crying...michelle if u reading this...can u tell mi y...a stranger can react to nani bade mor better den u do...even de stranger dunnnoe nani tt well...even lionel n nickky hu is not near to us cum and celebrate nani bdae...together wit us...wat hav u got to sae for yourself...u write at yr tag board tt u hav no fwen...pls lorz...it will not be this way if this is not because of u..treating like spare partz...wat doris nvr cum den wan to go wit us...doris cum hack care us..i hav no time for ppl like tis i tell u first...dun make mi piss off n slap u...treat u as bez fwen..u like tt treat us back...u hav no fwen tt time...i go b yr fwen now gt fwen u hack care mi...

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haiz todae borring de lorz...cum skool late...den tot late liao...might as well be more late and dun need to go for de morning assembly and dun need to take national anthem...den i and jie lun waited outside school....while waiting jie lun decide to c how true is our fwenship...den go sms nani -->eh i late....nadiah kena accident...now we in de ambulance...dun tell any1 except michelle...but wen nani recieve de msg she was so shocked than she go shout to michelle...straight away,....den manda all hear...lorz...den mandy tot of visiting me tml...den michelle was so shocked...den wen manda heard...den go chase after ms ng...cause ms ng wan to put mi n jie lun as truant...den dey go chase ms ng....den go tell ms ng...den we go second floor de gals toilet near de locker wan...we go i laugh2 at dem...din relized tt manda n nani was in de same toilet..den dey saw us ...dey shout like hell...wah lau...den i njie lun kept on laughin...den dey beat us up...den i go shout...jus now i nvr go ambulance...later u continue to beat mi up i n jie lun will end up in de ambulance....dendey stop...den luff2..den we go to the forth floor evey1 eh... i tot u in de ambulance...den we kept on laughin...i noe we evli bad de...but we jus wan to test how stong our fwenship...hahahz...den go class ms ng ...sae u noe of de boy hu cried wolf...den i sae i noe...den i sae sorry....den continue to do my own work...den eng lesson we walk off de class n go...photocopy notes..go locker...go toilet..all lorz...den get back to class listen to discman n read de magazine...den mr goh..can't stnad liao...go complaint to de head of english department....den after recess mimanda,sue-e n doris mane kena called out...den we luff 2 but noe lorz y...den dun care lorz...den we still can luff2 lorz...den ms claris ng ask mi to call chairman...den paiseh lorz...in de middle of de recess assembly mus go call ..den watever lorz...den jus go call lorz...den ms claris ng ask where doris...den chairman sae she gt come...but nt at de recess assembly...den ms claris ng ask chairman to tell doris see her....den doris go down at de foyer der...den go pautou michelle....kaupeh....can jus lie sae u alone mahz...den go class....late 2....hahah...den lit time okok nor...do grp work ...it seem tt mi n manda cannot be seperate wan....frm last year no watter what...she sure near mi...che chang class position...she either in front ,behind,or on my side wan...den grp work...if teacher asign...sure wit her...wan...den we nvr do lit de hw...last2 lesson den jus photocoy....den de cher noe...den we kena rewrite 11x...idiot...den after tt i n jie lun go c adam...cause he give us detntion..haaz...den abt 4+ den he let us off...den i'm here writing this blog lorz....haiz...monday ms ng wan to c mi...haiz...because abt the 1000 words compo i write for her...

Love Still HurtZ

I know in my heart its over
You just want me for a friend
I realize more each moment
Your love is at the end

I find it hard to look at you
Its still hurts to see your face
I can't forget how good you felt
I miss your sweet embrace

I cannot bare to hear you talk
Weak vibrations is so wrong
There's no affection in your voice
The sound of love is gone

There's a pain in every breath i take
The air broadcast your cologne
At home, at work and everywhere
I'm lost and all alone

I've heard it said"time heal all wounds"
I can only hope its true
Right now its seem unlikely
Because i'm still in love with you...

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haiz..todae??lol...fit period science mahz...den do practical....den go steal de chemical...hehehe....den go to music late...tok2 den kena sit far away from amanda all..den cher tek my lit notes dun let mi study..kau peh wan lorz...den wan to go recess liao...i put my shoe near de door mahz..den my fwenz all play2 tek my shoe out...hehez...den i go in de music rm back n ask de cher to give mi back my note....den he make mi sae pls...wah lau dun like lehz..den in de end he give lorz...den go recesss...mandy sad 2....lorz....den go back recess gt mathz....den mt...den wait for tt yahida....i do disturd zhang lixia...i go sae...zhang lixia wo ai ni...den she ask mi go in her chinese class...tt is 2e3....den she tell her class abt me...den chein wen saw mi toro poster...wah hen shuai lehz....den she ask mi to c her after mt class...den i go c her lorz...den she go tell ms Ng...n ask mi to c her wen star...den ms ng scold mi lorz.....den pinch my ear until so red...but used to it liao...so never mind...den go english...borring lorz....den gt lit...lit gt teset..haiz de test quite ez lorz...cause de cher go out of de class tek test paper for my fwenz..cause nt enuf paper...den i go tek out my de lit bk...copy alot of answer...heehe...kau peh wan lorz...mi....should noe...den go star...she ask to copy her chinese bk....sec2 express tb...frm page 58-61...wah lau...de handwriting corrupted sia....lyk shit...i can't even read wat i write...hahazzz...den skipped enrichement again...hahha

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When you love someone
you'll do anything.
You'll do all the crazy things
that you can't explain.
You'll fly to the moon,
or reach for the sun
when you love someone.
You'll deny the truth,
believe the lies.
There will be times that you believe
you can really fly.
But your life has really just begun
when you love someone.
When you love someone and feel it deep inside,
and nothing else could ever change your mind.
When you want someone,
when you need someone,
when you love someone,
you'll sacrifice.
Give everything you've got.
You won't think twice.
You risk it all.
No matter what the cost
when you love someone.
You'll fly to the moon
and touch the sun
when you love someone.

haiz..tomolo..i,manda,sue-e,doris n wilson jia lat liao...jus get ready to be scolded by adam...my name is in the worst 5 student in de class...haiz...wanna noe y...i tok back to chers...i walk off de class wenever i wan...i slee in class...never do homeworkz...cum class late....nvr pay attention...make class noisy....luff at cher wen he/she prounous word wrongly...make fun of her to de class make de class luff at her..hahaha..i noe i veli de bad...but...veli borring sia de cher...den if de cher tok mono tone...i will sae cher tok properly lahz...tok mono tone for wat...veli borring lahz....u wan me go sleep isit...den gt lotz of other crappy stuff lorz i do...den cher piss off...hahahazzzz...den todae okok nor....saw chang n his other botak fwen wen recess...den i show manda...c his head botak....den manday shot to monk....den dey turn n luff...hahahzzz.veli funni lehz...c 2 botak head turn at de same time...hahhaz...todae lotz of test...but i onli noe1....haha...todae gt...english,history,malay n science...but i onli noe gt science de rest i dunnoe...hahahz...okok lahz...overall todae...k lahz ...dunnoe wat to sae liao...buoiz...

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...yesterdae???i dunnoe watz gone wrong wit mi...i saw him...he move on...left onli mi...i can't seem to move on with my life...i can't stop myself to think of him...no matter how occupied iam...there he will be...on my mind...haz...even wen i did my mathz common test...i wish him luck in his test inside my heart...hope...he pass his test...i dun mine if he dun wish me good luck or wat...i jus wan him...to get the bez ...i feel so down this few daez...i feel tat i'm not last time...cause since i noe him...my life change...n i tresure his fwenship...eventhough i dun recieve the same treatmeant as i did before...i dunnnoe y he suddenli change...i dunnoe wat he think of me anymor....i dun recieve so many msg from him anymore...i dunnoe y...my life dun seem colourful as it used to be...wen he treat me as his fwen...ah..i dunnoe lahz...i dunnoe even if wat is de cause of our fwenship to becum like this...itsit me...or ???i dunnoe...my heart can seem to forget those things u did to me...n de time we had together...i jus noe...i miss u...i realli like u to be here wit mi....every moment....every second...every min of my life...i dun seem to care about my studies anymor...cause i miss u too much...i can't help thinking of u....i noe itz so crap....cause ppl never miss u ...u miss him for wat...but...i tried leeting go...but i can't....i hav a feeling tt he dun caare about me anymore....nvm...tt is his wish...i can't control him...jus like i can't control my feelings for him...to me ...Letting go of someone dear is hard...but letting go of someone hu dosent fell de same is much harder...

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today???errmmm wat happen hor...oh...go skool like normal...den gt choral speaking...haiz...c de other class hu get in de finals...so de jelous....last time 1e4 so de unite...tis year corrupted...onli unite wen doing all de bad stuff onli...all of dem change...including mi...some be mor goo lorz...but most is be more naughty...haiz,...dunnnoe lahz y hor...miss wong give us advices but all seem to go in de right ear n cum out de left ear...den c the 2e3 so co-operative....hiaz...den dey won de 1st prize...in de competition...some of us de 2e4 thinks...tat our reputation hav been stolen...cause we used to b de 1st in choral speeking...i guess..tt jus life...den went back to class...never hear wat de cher tokin...think of him...sleep...do my own stuff..haiz...i guess...life without him is so borring...all de way think of him...laugh got laugh lahz...but inside haiz...so hurt...de felling as if my heart been ripped off so harfully...as dey say...letting go of someone dear to you is hard,but holding on to someone who dosen't feel de same is much harder...

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errm...it started off wen i met michelle in de train...den start tokin crap lorz in de mrt....den reach skool so de happi...den act asif i veli de good lahz hor...den everone hu passby me...den late....den i saw wah lou dun late lehz...my be like me so good...cum so early...den sit down onli tok crap wit manda lahz hor...tok2 dun noe until where lahz hor...den de lit cher cum and sae to 1 of de 2e3 gal...can we get started today???den i was thinking...uh...den i n michelle n manda started laughing...den i go ask everone...can we get started todae...hahah...if u dirty minded u noe lahz hor wat i tokin abt...den go to class veli de borring wan first 2 period...sci...wah lau tt class can sure sleep wan...den gt music...den we nvr listen to cher...i n manda sit 1 conner and tok...wah lau den tok until de subject tt i dun like to tok ..den watever she ask i kept saying nth...den go to recess...i wit manda...try to find nani dunnoe go where...de michelle is wit mandy de...so ...den manda kena bully..hahah...so happi...den i oso kena lorz...den...errm..den de rest of de dae borring lorz...den i lit..so de funni...tok abt fucking lahz...wat lahz tis n tt...but den i nt happi wit de cher...cum to our class nt happi i be de victim...fucker...wah lau he cum onli i nvr tok...stand all tt de...den go shout my name..jus to ask if i gt do his hw...like he noe tt i will not do 1...fucker...den nt happi...start showing middle finger...den he came to de back of my seat to c michelle works tt is wen i relised tt wen he use his pants can see his underware...den i tek revege by telling most of my class matez tt can see de underwear den dey all ...laugh2...haha..cannot blame de,...den go bowl der see michelle..xcape chinese...den kena ask to leave....fucker sia...de cher..den wait for dem till 5...den dey wanna go to ice skateing.... n see jie lun..den follow lorz...den saw yun kwang fall down ...de leg open so big...den mandy start saying de kok now veli hard to steam liao...cause freeze...den we all started laughing...den a while later...1 guy fall...den another guy fall..den another...so de funni

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harlo...i long time never write liao..haha..i deleted all de last time post alreadi...cause i dun wan to think of de past...errm...hopefull this will make mi cheer up abit...cause lately i hav been thinkin abt de past alot...n i hav been sad2 all de way ...hopefully wen i delete all my post in tis blog...those in my mind oso deleted off...cause...i dun wan to think abt my past any more...life....in skool...hiaz...dunnoe lahz....

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